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floop
I feel alone..and loved at the same time. It was a long tiring day and I wish I was anywhere but here. Memories of yesterday cloud my mind but I'm trying to see past them. I don't really feel like doing anything..I just want to flop..or maybe floop cause I can't seem to do anything right. I want to go to sleep but I can't right now. I need to be reading..or writing..doing something constructive..but all I want to do is wander around or maybe talk to somebody. If you asked me who I thought I would be 10 yrs ago, I would have given a completely different answer than the one I have today. Who am I? I'm a silly, slightly misunderstood, confused, delusional, self concious, naive, tempermental girl...there are so many words I could use to describe myself..some good and some bad. I think I'm overly complex..or maybe I'm not complex at all..maybe I'm so simple I just think I'm complex..maybe my entire life up to this point has been a boring waste and my "personality" is just a vain attempt at being interesting. I'm not sure what any of this means yet..or why exactly I feel the way I feel right now..but all I can do is keep trying..keep trying to be whatever it is I'm supposed to be..maybe one day I'll be that girl who lives in my head.
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