ok i am so ******** sick of my mom! she exspects every thing to be done at once. i never get a chane to do anything befor she starts barking at me. i finidh my bottle of pop and then go to take my stuff by the comeputer away cus she toled me to do that right befor she toled me to sit down and say for dinner. so ofcoruse after dinner he starts biching at me to take my stuff away.
so i got to do that and as i grab that she's barking at me again to take the bottle out. i throw my stuff infrom of the door to my room. come back down and take the bottle out. then she complanes about my backpack. i still have homework init that i need to take out and do and she's yelling at me to take that away. i tell her i dont have anywher in my room for it. she tells me to cleen my room then i tell here i still dont have any where for it. "you have a closet" she says so i've got the perfict like for thart "i dont have a closet, i have your 2ed one".
and as soon as i get on the comp she says that tracy never got an e-mail from me (my last diet program leader) she want to meet with me. well i dont. i never realy e-mailed here. why can my mom never be happy with me? i could win a nobel prize and she still wouldint give a damn if i didint look good enough.
is it so wrong that i dont care or realy want to loes waight? i dont give a damn if i look "right" or not. and nether do my friends. i dont want any friend that go by a first look, the people that do are the ones that i ether pitty or hate. so i become one of them? i hate myseld. most people like me alredy hate them selfs and want to be like that. i'm one of the only people left on this shalo imaged indused planit, why kill that off? MORE people should just be happy the way they are!
OH! i just remembered one more thing(hay i never forced you to read all of this >.> *sends the ninjas away*)
last week my mom was in a tranning coruse for her work, to be teem leader (grate she gets an ego boost) so she comes home frustrated. she gets upset at me and my brother. she sayd its cus she's haveing a hard time in the coruse, understanding things and stuff. then she has the nirve to ask me (in a sarcastic tone) have i ever had a hard time in my classed "only from grade ******** 2! you know i'm LD i've never been able to fuly understand everything and do my work." she just looks at me "i've always had a hard time in my school life up untill now." and thats why i cant be simpathetic to her now. she thinks that i've never felt like the way she just did for a few days? that the way i've felt from gr 2 to gr9. my mom was always the head of her class even in the CMS program she was the top in canada! so now when she takes one hit everything is about her.
and she thinks that i'm addticed to my games. maybe i am? but i NEED them. every one eles gets to be in a life that they have some controul over. i dont have that in the real world. my mom controuls that. so i play rose so help me. i can jjust be me and not have to worry about anything. i dont need to look a serton ways or do every thing that one person tells me to. i can just be me and if its not to bad of a sin HAVE SOME FUN FOR ONES IN MY LIFE!
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