1. I sometimes place my hand against a mirror or even just palm out and flat to thin air or flat vertical surfaces. I think this has something to do with some sort of hope that one day I'll place my hand like that and someone else will place their palm against mine. When I put my hand on the mirror I wonder "will I ever get to meet you?" which is kind of odd because the person on the other side of the mirror is undeniably me (at least appearance-wise).
2. I hadn't had any dreams for a while but recently I had two in a row and then one a week or two later. They all involved the same person. They became steadily more vivid (get yer mind out of the gutter) and realistic feeling. If I were to give them titles in the order in which they happened they would be "Searching/Alone", "Found", and "Being Together".
3. I came to the realization that I'm human. Don't get me wrong, I already knew this ~ I'm not some sort of arrogant b***h who thinks she's a goddess or anything like that. Just that it's okay for me to have flaws, doubts, become insecure.... I don't have to be a perfect person for people to like me. I never really tried to be perfect to begin with, though. I am who I am. I need to work on curbing my "evil woman" gene, though. It pops out sometimes.
4. Sometimes when someone talks to me I won't speak but, instead, will widen my eyes slightly and tilt my head and then nod or shake it and blink for my responses. I think this could either be described as cute or extremely annoying. Many things have the ability to fit into these two categories at the same time.
5. Women are constantly discontent with their own bodies but like almost any other woman's body. Which sucks... we should learn to be content with what we have. I do manage this occasionally but usually not.
6. People are meant to move along and evolve. We all need to understand this.
7. It's okay to say "I'm miserable" or to voice insecurities, doubts, things you're discontent about. It's good to admit it when you have a problem. It's alright not to be strong all the time (believe it or not).
Japanese for the day:
Kyou
Today
Mainichi
Every day/day after day
.... a random guinea pig.
