I've been stareing at my computer screen for nye on an hour now, can't seem to get anything done. Its makeing me a little depressed. And sleepy. I've got three documents minimized on my computer screen; one is a role play document I've saved, the other two are The Parker Project and Initation, both stories I've been trying and failing to work on over the past three days.
I'm telling myself this stupid slump will pass soon. That's the nice thing about life, it always moves on. Although its been moving very slowly for me over the past three days. I haven't been getting to sleep until 5am. I'm probably thinking too much again, as I do from time to time...
Yet its hard to sit still. When I'm lying in bed I can't help but feel that my quest for sleep is going no where fast and that I should find something better to do with my time. I'm impatient. I don't know why people sleep. Its one of those unconvient things that go with being alive, I guess. That sounds a little angstful but I don't mean it that way. I just feel that there are better things I could spend my time doing than sleeping (if it weren't a biological need). My days just feel so unproductive, all I ever do is sit at this damn computer, doing nothing, not even working on my stories... That's what I should be doing.
Back to what I said before, this probably isn't a big deal. I make it out to be like it is and then spend all night trying to solve it. Yeah, I'm definately thinking too much.
I was hoping to do some streaming writing with this journal of mine but it looks like I can't even do that! Once again, its probably nothing, just tired and that should be a good thing. At least if I'm tired I'll be able to sleep... right?
EDIT: 11.15.05
Thought I would post something postitive to this, since I'm under so much stress anyway. I finished Initiation! W00t! Now I just have to edit and start the second draft. But first I have to put a stake through the heart of my NaNo project.
Sergeant Sargent · Wed Oct 26, 2005 @ 11:53am · 2 Comments |