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1) this bean took a personality disorder test and came up low on all except one... narcissistic (on which I got medium)... now, this is pretty funny, if you ask me. See, I kind of think it's a nifty thing ~ from my perspective it means I have a self sustained ego. I kind of already knew that. But I don't know weather it's that I have high self esteem or that I just don't care... something like neutral-positive, I guess. That's not to say that nothing bursts my bubble. One could say I'm a little more objective than most.

2) My perspective on myself is a little different than how others see themselves, I think. I'm not very emotional about it ~ how I see myself is more like an assessment of my flaws and good points. No real tangible value like money or anything ~ just I know who I am. Also, I don't really see myself as being "good enough" or "worth it" ~ and I don't see myself as "not good enough" or "not worth it". If someone wants me or recognizes one of my talents, then obviously I'm good enough and worth whatever effort they put into getting me to do whatever it was I did. If someone wants to give me a present or say something nice to me then obviously I deserved it (flawed but happy reasoning) (see? a narcissistic point of view).

3) I've been getting a lot of letters from various colleges around the US (and one from Canada) lately. It's kind of cool, really.... cause some of the pamphlets and booklets are fancy... some of the letters are flattering... and some are just boring ~ but there are a lot of them. There are a lot of cool colleges out there and it looks like I'll be able to have my choice of a lot of them (has nice grades). I don't really see college as something I "want" ~ it's kind of like high school was for me ~ a means that I must take to reach my desired end.


Japanese for the day:

Saru
monkey

Tori
bird