Self loathing, fear, loneliness, regret, inadequacy. Feelings, just feelings, right? Not actually a state of being or an absolute truth but why are these feelings controlling my life? ********, I haven't felt this low in a long time, is it starting again? Will I slowly stoop down to depression once again? I hate myself, hate my life. I'm numb, tired. I want to feel something. Something good, something positive. Love, happiness, self worth. Something, I just can't. I have nothing to feel happy about, I have no one to love and I don't have anything to justify myself with in my own mind. ********, that's sad. I can't even find worth in my life, wonder how others must feel.
Goddamnit.
I have no reason to continue except that I have to continue. Heh, the only thing that's keeping me going is the momentum.
 haruki_jitsunin · Mon Mar 30, 2009 @ 07:48am · 0 Comments |
