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What is this feeling? I can't quite put my tongue on it. All I know is that I'm in my happy place. A million dreams of happiness put together is not near the feeling of this one, single dream. I'm with him. My love, my one, my only. His face is the only one I see and he is the only one I want. I dream this dream every night. And never, not even once, has my needs been fully satisfied. The dream starts out the same as always; there we are, just the two of us in the sunset on the beach, staring deeply into each others eyes while holding hands and our fingers intertwined. I think to myself of how I love him so. No; not love. More than love. I stare into the eyes of the one thing that I can never lose, the one thing that I can't live without. He lifts his hand up to softly stroke my cheek with his fingers. I lay my hand on his and turn my head just enough to softly kiss his palm. He takes my face between his hands and we stand there for what seems like forever. Then, ever so slightly, he lifts my face to his. As soon as our lips touch, sparks fly. My heart beats in my chest and my stomach flips with joy and excitement. I suddenly crave more, like I can't seem to get enough of him. As if my body had a mind of it's own, my hands crawl up his protecting arms and my arms wrapped themselves behind his neck and latch on. We begin to kiss with more passion, then more, and more; the world around us spinning out of control. Then our tongues touch just the slightest and my body simply couldn't take it any more. I begin to fall to the ground in a daze. It felt as if the floor under me just suddenly disappeared. Thinking that I'll hit the ground, I mentally prepare myself for the impact. Nothing happens. Slowly I peek open my eyes and gasp in spite of myself. There, right in front of me, was the most beautiful and amazing sight anyone could ever have in the entire universe. The light of the orange and golden sunset shining ever so radiently on his beautiful face; it almost knocked the breath right out of me. How could I deserve such a beauty? Why is it me that this beautiful angel chose? I feel my cheeks getting hotter and, realizing of my sudden blush, I turn away so that the angel doesn't see me in this embarrassing state. Even though I was frightened of being in such an extravegant presence, I felt safe and secure. I felt like I was at home. I let the warm feeling wash over my body like the ocean water around our feet. A soft but almost burning touch falls upon my chin; more sparks fly. The angel lifts my face from the shadow and showers me in his light. I suddenly feel sure of myself and lift my hand slowly and touch his cheek, just to make sure he's real. My fingers make contact and we looks into each others eyes with love. Again, the world moves in slow motion for us. For just this single moment. This time, I lift my lips to his and we just stay there, exchanging small tokens of our love. I send him my mind, body and soul. I belong to him and to no one else. A realization comes to me: he is mine and I'm in love with him. I love him so much. My heart belongs to him and no one shall take my love from him. He slides his arm under my legs and his other arm around me and lifts me from the ground. He carries me away into the sunset into forever where we'll be happy for as long as we live. . .


The question is, is this just a dream. . . or a vision of the future?
I guess we'll just have to wait and see. . . ♥