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Have you ever felt like you have no reason to try anything anymore because you're not gonna be there much longer??? yeah...that's me right now...i don't feel like trying anything anymore...there's no point...i'm moving in less than a month....and i really don't want to leave, but i do at the same time...there's nothing for me here anymore, but my entire life is here...everything expect joey. i'm so torn and it's got joey worried...it's making him feel like i don't care that i'm going to be with him. but i do, it's just...i spent my entire adolescence here...with my best friend...and i'm leaving it all behind....i get to be with my family and the place that's most calming to me...but i have a feeling it's going to feel weird...for the longest time i've felt that that's someplace family is, and now it's going to be someplace i am. i've spent the last year thinking joey's going to come down here, and that's not going to happen anymore...things are so much harder when you understand it...