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So, I'm kinda trying not to like him.
Why? Cause it's a waste of my time.
He's only interested in some blonde chick and 7th graders anyways.
So, why bother?
Secondly, I have more important things to worry about.
Like, my grades. The Science and Social Studies TAKS, I am completely going to fail.
Then, bye bye Harry Potter Theme Park.
And bye bye... Birthday celebration, since I'd have to go to summer school most likely.
FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU.
Why did Texas have to be so damn strict about grades?
Its freaking ridiculous!!
OH and the TAKS for math and reading, were so much easier than the HSA. My friends in Hawaii would fer sure get 100s on both the tests. Me, I got a 92 (math) and a 98 (reading) which is pretty damn high, for me at least xD
ANYWAYS, all this s**t about academics is really overwhelming me.
I think one day in class, I'll be hypervenilating from all the stress.
It's just, once you reach high school things get serious.
Not like Degrassi and the whole " Things are about to get real. "
I mean real real, cause of your future and what not.
I'm just, afraid of where I will end up, and how my life will be spent.
My fear, is time going by too quickly, and me not having done anything within that time.
I want to know how to drive, I want to learn how to do financial complications and what not and end up with a good, fun, successful job.
I just don't know how to get there, and things right now aren't looking so good.
I am slacking, I don't know much, don't show much effort into showing that I want to improve because really, I don't want to.
As much as education seems to be my every worry and thought, I really don't care about it.
I want to do much funner things, and explore life's many experiences and all that junk, but we all know that can't happen without money, time and.. socialness for the social things like dating and stuff haha.
WHICH I AM NOT SOCIAL.

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This all makes more sense in my head..