Watching the streetlights, as they buzz, flicker and break,
Wondering how much more of my heart you can possibly take.
On this eve I walk alone, I have done for the longest time now,
How dare you commit to me and promise you'd make a vow?
You just came and went as you please,
Do you even realise how much you hurt me?!
No, I doubt it, all you care is for yourself,
Never giving a damn about anyone, not even myself.
You told me you'd love me forever,
It was a lie when you said we'd always be together!
You thought you broke me by walking out that door,
Little did you know, I've never felt so great before.
You shaped me and formed me when we were one,
Contorted me to what you wished I become,
But, not anymore, no, never again,
Shall I fall defenseless and become this feign.
I recall how you despised me wearing make up,
I needed my mask more and more just to keep the fake up,
I even asked my monstrous friend,
He told me it was ridiculous, your reactions, he you did offend.
You ruled my friendships, only allowed which friends you deemed alright,
Little me, I never refused, never spoke, I didn't fight.
And I lost everyone, you were alone? I was! I had no one!
But you, you got everything you wanted, didn't you? You took it all, just for fun.
You ******** me up in the mind,
How tremendously unkind,
Then you cried your crocodile tears,
You knew they were my deepest fear.
Since you left, disappeared out of the blue,
I've met friends who love me, they are so true,
They brought me back to who I am,
Not some controlled puppet, the puppeteer: your hand.
I've met Rotton, Ignis and Val,
Among others, they've made me forget your animal.
They are the best thing, the love they bring,
The voices they speak, they broke your strings.
You did every little thing in your will to cause me to avoid the monster,
You told me of how he'd be this horrid dream haunter.
I told you otherwise at the time, because Ignis made me feel like I was me,
It made me smile, something you failed to do, no matter how you'd be.
More recently, I recall Rotton, the best thing to happen to me in a while,
I radiate happiness in his company, seeing his face alone is enough to make me smile,
Not only that, but he knows how to take me, none to serious,
And he knows how I am, he gets me like you never could, you were always so delirious.
Val makes me feel loved, brilliant friend,
Knows how to make me laugh and never offends,
Forever fun and never dull,
New to me, yet I feel I know so well.
And the rest, unmentioned and seemingly shadowed,
Yet they are so brilliant and the confidence they endowed,
Shall never be forgotten, I'm always so thankful,
For the restoration they gave to the broken pieces of my handful.
So here is my ode, my ode to the deserter,
You know who you are and I pray this gets to yer!
Because I know when you see this, you'll know what I've gone through,
And you'll know of the people who pieced me back together, who undid your runthrough.
Wondering how much more of my heart you can possibly take.
On this eve I walk alone, I have done for the longest time now,
How dare you commit to me and promise you'd make a vow?
You just came and went as you please,
Do you even realise how much you hurt me?!
No, I doubt it, all you care is for yourself,
Never giving a damn about anyone, not even myself.
You told me you'd love me forever,
It was a lie when you said we'd always be together!
You thought you broke me by walking out that door,
Little did you know, I've never felt so great before.
You shaped me and formed me when we were one,
Contorted me to what you wished I become,
But, not anymore, no, never again,
Shall I fall defenseless and become this feign.
I recall how you despised me wearing make up,
I needed my mask more and more just to keep the fake up,
I even asked my monstrous friend,
He told me it was ridiculous, your reactions, he you did offend.
You ruled my friendships, only allowed which friends you deemed alright,
Little me, I never refused, never spoke, I didn't fight.
And I lost everyone, you were alone? I was! I had no one!
But you, you got everything you wanted, didn't you? You took it all, just for fun.
You ******** me up in the mind,
How tremendously unkind,
Then you cried your crocodile tears,
You knew they were my deepest fear.
Since you left, disappeared out of the blue,
I've met friends who love me, they are so true,
They brought me back to who I am,
Not some controlled puppet, the puppeteer: your hand.
I've met Rotton, Ignis and Val,
Among others, they've made me forget your animal.
They are the best thing, the love they bring,
The voices they speak, they broke your strings.
You did every little thing in your will to cause me to avoid the monster,
You told me of how he'd be this horrid dream haunter.
I told you otherwise at the time, because Ignis made me feel like I was me,
It made me smile, something you failed to do, no matter how you'd be.
More recently, I recall Rotton, the best thing to happen to me in a while,
I radiate happiness in his company, seeing his face alone is enough to make me smile,
Not only that, but he knows how to take me, none to serious,
And he knows how I am, he gets me like you never could, you were always so delirious.
Val makes me feel loved, brilliant friend,
Knows how to make me laugh and never offends,
Forever fun and never dull,
New to me, yet I feel I know so well.
And the rest, unmentioned and seemingly shadowed,
Yet they are so brilliant and the confidence they endowed,
Shall never be forgotten, I'm always so thankful,
For the restoration they gave to the broken pieces of my handful.
So here is my ode, my ode to the deserter,
You know who you are and I pray this gets to yer!
Because I know when you see this, you'll know what I've gone through,
And you'll know of the people who pieced me back together, who undid your runthrough.
