So what do you do when your maternal body tells you "this is why I never spend time with you because you ruin the fun for everyone."?
Honestly there is no excuse for why a mother or father refuses to spend time with their children. My mother always tells me how retarded and stupid I am, and that's coming from someone who thinks there are only two planets and the sun revolves around the earth. (Fail)
My mother is always happy at work but the second she comes home she does nothing but yell at me all day. She tries to find the smallest s**t to yell at me for. Its like she can't live without yelling at someone every day. She takes pride in telling me that I'm "lazy" and how she doesn't understand why I don't dress like a slut, and go out ******** around because that's what she did when she was 20-. You would think a mother would be proud of having a daughter who refuses to consume alcohol, do drugs, sleep around with strangers she met at some club, and etc. No, my mother is "special" she acts like she wants me to be like that when most parents would kill to have a mature lady like me as their daughter.
My mother even had the nerves once to try and replace me with some b***h who she hired. She was 18 and I was 19 at the time. My mother would come home every day talking about her none stop. She would take her to the mall and out to eat for lunch and s**t. My mother was spending some mad time with this chick. She was completely trying to replace me with her. That b***h would tell me how nice my mom is and she wishes that was her mom. She has no ******** idea what she's talking about. When my mom is home from work she's Satan. My mother has even said numerous times that she sees this girl as her own daughter. It really hurts when your mother would rather have someone else as their daughter and then actually try to replace you. That chick was a horrible person yet my mom would rather be related to her. She drinks, smokes, sleeps around, works at a hooker bar, and she's a compulsive liar. Every mother's dream right? I think mothers who can't see what a good child they have in front of them have serious issues. We use to be very close when I was a child because then she was at least single, except for those random strangers she would bring home at night but the second she got married, and had my brother, my life went down hill. When I turned 13 she started yelling at me all the time and leaving me alone in my room instead of spending time with me. I honestly think that during the teen years that is when you're parents need to be most involved because you go through so many changes during those few years. Since my mom was never around when I was a teen she ruined the relationship we had. She never spent time with me and never talked to me in my time of need. I hardly knew her when I was a teen so I couldn't even trust talking to her about my problems. Her excuse was that I turned into a "b***h" when I turned 13. That's no excuse for why you cast your daughter aside as if she's nothing. In my opinion she's the one who became a the b***h.
Lately I've been extremely stressed and depressed. My mother is getting a divorce, finally, and she's been on max b***h mode for months now. I have no idea where we're going to be living. I'm trapped in the house 24/7 because she won't make sure I get my license. There's no where to walk to. I'm just stuck in my tiny bed room and its driving me nuts. My mother says that she's depressed being in our house and that's why she never home anymore at night because she's spending the night with her new boyfriend. She's completely inconsiderate that I hate this house too and I'm trapped here unlike her. She always bitches about how when I have a boyfriend I care more about him than my own family ... my mother is no different. She neglects me and my little brother every time she has a new guy. She'll go to work, then drop off some McDonalds or make spaghetti every night really quick, and then she disappears all night. Then I'm stuck raising her kid while she's out living it up. She acts like she's the one who's 20 and I'm the one who's 34 with children. People like my mother shouldn't be allowed to breed.
That was a long rant. I decided to write it in here since clearly I can't talk to my "boyfriend" about my problems anymore because I'm so "rude." Kinda saddening that in your biggest time of need, and you expect the people that "love" you to be there no matter what, that I get told how "rude" I've been lately, and that's why they "don't have any advise to give you because you're rudeness makes them not have anything to say." I guess that's what you get out of someone who has the perfect life. They don't know what to say because they don't have any bad experiences to contribute. Nor do they have the ability to place themselves in your shoes for a minute and try to understand what its like to be you.
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