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	Worthless...
	Worthless...


I had a whole write-up about how SakuraCon went... but I can't post it. Need to re-edit. However... to the reasoning behind the title of this entry. Why is it called "worthless"? Because I am, what else? I've been doing a lot of introspection lately, and came to the conclusion that in fact, I haven't actually been doing anything at all, and that all my modding... is for naught. I don't have the intuitive ability to do these things like a couple of the other omnis... Really, I'm ineffective and the cases I do... I don't know what I was going to say anymore. Just that scatterbrained, I guess. I asked someone how bad was the GD queue. Wanna know? Tuesday the 28th of MARCH. At least as a dedicated mod, I was able to do something, but as an omni, when hack/scams take up so much energy, I don't have time for anything else. The GEN. I missed doing that so much sometimes... but being a mod just sucks most of my time and energy right out. At least I have the event items update ready for tomorrow's posting. I'm a worthless owner. I shouldn't even be called that because, seriously, what type of owner gives up all that she worked hard on to be a mod at the drop of the proverbial hat? I'm a worthless omni. I can barely do 5 cases in one sitting before I'm so drained of energy that I can't do anymore, instead pick through my ever-growing PM box trying not to drown. I'm a worthless person. At work, I dance around, smiles on my face and talking all-high-ish, when all it is is a facade so that I 1) don't come off as threatening, 2) look cute and sound cute, and 3) hiding all of the emotions I feel behind a mask so that I don't get a bad review. I just am, there's no way around it. SakCon synop in a week. Aquafire · Fri Apr 07, 2006 @ 08:40am · 19 Comments


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	You are not worthless! Being a mod would be a stressful job. The other omnis whom you speak of, if I am thinking of the right ones, have been omnis alot longer and they have the general feel of things and they are use to it. It is like any job. The first while is draining but then you get use to it. And you are far from worthless!! domokun Never think that about yourself! Alot of people will agree with me!! domokun domokun We love you! Never doubt your friends! heart Offline Tony Bartuc · Community Member · Fri Apr 07, 2006 @ 09:15am


	You're one of the best Mods that I know on this site, dear. Don't ever get down on yourself about doing a bad job. The issue with GD is why I PMed you last week about those other things too. It's not your fault that you can't get to them because you have more important things to do and Anarchist and Nuime just can't do it all themselves. Especially right now with Zahir taking a little breather. Don't ever get down on yourself about the good work you do on this website. Take a little time to do the things you love about this site so you have more insentive to do the things necessary for you to enjoy it. It'll help give you more perspective on the big scheme of things. Miss the GEN? Take some time to just browse around, finagle and do your Exchange thing for a little bit so you can feel happy and energised. You need YOU time before all else because a happy You is the only Aqua we want around here. You're awesome when you're happy, and that's the Aqua I added to my slim list of friends on her. biggrin PM me sometime because I'd love to talk about anything and everything if you need someone and you need a different perspective. For you babe, I'll make the time to make that happy Aqua again. Offline Hawkeye_GGK · Community Member · Fri Apr 07, 2006 @ 01:33pm


	Aqua, you're one of the best mods I've seen on this site, and I'm the type to complain about report backlogging being pointless. You, Zahir, Nuime, Anarchist, Moonblossom... all GREAT mods. I hear NOTHING but good things about you from everyone. Even notorious mod haters. You're the sweetest and most understanding of the mods, and the best part is that you lack the hurtful sarcasm that even some of the mods I listed seem to have. You've somehow avoided becoming unbearably cynical and jaded over this job, and I think that that's a rare and valuable quality. The moment that I heard that you were upset abd felt worthless, I wanted to smack some sense into you. You're anything BUT worthless and you should never have even thought that about yourself. Without you, hardly anything would get done. If you feel overwhelmed, take a break. Take time between each case for YOU time, if that's what you need. Play in the GEN for a little while before starting up the next case. I know you hardly even know me, since we never talk, but I certainly have noticed all that you've done for Gaia. Don't ever feel worthless, because people you don't even know love who you are; as a person and as a mod on Gaia. Offline TinHawk · Community Member · Fri Apr 07, 2006 @ 03:35pm


	ohh Aqua your far from useless. Your've always been a friend to me no matter what. Amd no matter how busy you always find time to do the important things like talking with your friends. Since I don't have detailed knowlage of what goes on iono what else to say but along with the rest of your friends we all love you hugs and I know I always worry about you. heart Offline l)ark Cell · Community Member · Fri Apr 07, 2006 @ 06:24pm


	Uggg.. If your worthless I'll pay for your attention and even let you inject babies into my thighs. Cheer up I hardley see alot of greenies active and i guess your feeling the burn. You deserve a reward or something for being so dedicated. Grats and forever more ravens tears kiss girls make them cry. Offline Darc_Master_Alchemist · Community Member · Fri Apr 07, 2006 @ 07:27pm


	Your awesome... ~ people understand that it does take up alot of your energy. People understand this too... people been hacked and stuff also feel this energy drain. This will obviously rub off on you too. Cos of all the sad bad vibes hanging around. But pretending your happy is a bad sign... sit down and talk with someone. That kinda thing helps. But its so hard to do. p.s dont drown... we need you. 3nodding heart Offline Innocentblackshadow · Community Member · Fri Apr 07, 2006 @ 07:32pm


	Just incase you didn't see the other posts, you're not worthless. >>; I remember before you were even a mode how helpful you were to gaia. GEN updater, GEPDer, and the all-around good exchanger. The only difference now is that you handle more important things relating to gaia, and you have a nice title to go with it all. I'd say you're a good mod. I know a lot of mods just don't mod for months on end, but everytime I saw you around, it seemed you were always working in one way or another. I said this a long time ago and I'll say it again, picking you to become a mod was a GREAT decision the admins made. I still stand by that. =] -Dreamsiical Offline Dreamsiical · Community Member · Sat Apr 08, 2006 @ 12:24am


	hugs Aqua sad heart You're not useless Aqua. You're one of the hardest working moderators I've known. Don't discourage yourself Aqua. You help Gaia a hell lot more than a bunch of us. If you need to talk to someone, we're here for you. 3nodding Offline Rosamaine · Community Member · Sat Apr 08, 2006 @ 01:26am


	Oh Aqua Hun, Don't Fret! Everyone feels like that sometimes. Granted you havea very stressful job on gaia but can't you go back to just the "purple" moderator if need be? I Thought you only took the Omni spot to release some tension on the others and for a trial basis... ::hugs:: I'm shure things will get better. Mucho Love, Izzy Offline insperation.suicide · Community Member · Sat Apr 08, 2006 @ 03:23am


	Aww, you aren't a failure! You write really funny journal posts! Offline The Sex God · Community Member · Sat Apr 08, 2006 @ 04:04am


	snugs Ahhh, Aqua... ;---; j00 know I am always here if you need someone to talk to...! Except when I'm sleeping... ~_~ I never msg you unless something's going on because I feel like I'm a bother ;-; Not some silly reason like not wanting to talk to you... 'Cause I dun mind that at all heart Obviously... I can't understand your work as a mod on any level, as I was never one... ;P But... There's plenty of purple mods... not so many green&teal... Even if hack/scam takes a lot out of you, you're one of the few people who have access to get them done... And people are always bitching OH I SENT IN MY REPORT WHY ISNT IT DONE in Q&A ~_~ But they're impatient bastards most of the time... ahem My point is, I guess, don't think that those reports are any less important? There's plenty of purples to move threads (& deal with rule breakers), plus Helpers... so maybe you're not the one who's worthless? wink And as for PMs... even I get lazy with mine... xp In any case... you will always be wanted & needed with GEN smile 'Cause we love you and all that silly stuff whee Speaking of... I still need to do that stuff I promised... sweatdrop Argh... Gomen... Offline Kathleen Starr · Community Member · Tue Apr 11, 2006 @ 12:29pm


	They're right, you know. You're anything but worthless, Aqua... in fact, I've been of the opinion that you're an amazing woman ever since we met, and even now you deserve all the respect and friendship that I can give you. You somehow manage to be in so many places and doing so many things that by comparison, I go through things in my life at a snail's pace. But underneath all that, I understood that there's been a lot of things expected of you by a lot of people, and I can only imagine what kind of stress you must be under on a regular basis. It makes me wish I could do something to help somehow, but I don't know what, apart from lending an ear or some friendly consolation/advice if you'd want me to. But again, you are most definitely not worthless; you're just trying to get through life and its twists and turns the best you can. I, at least, can't expect any more than that from the people I care about. Offline Elliot_Rhymeless · Community Member · Tue Apr 18, 2006 @ 11:10pm


	Being a Moderator is a labor of luvvv.. I should know. It's the funnest non-paying job i've had since working at american airlines o.o; Offline Genyusai · Community Member · Fri Apr 28, 2006 @ 08:55am


	The fact is that Mods can never really change gaia. Gaia will always be full of idiots that try to scam others just so they dont have to go through all of the hard work that the rest of us go through. But Mods do help. Without them, Gaia wouldn't even be worth going on. There would just be to many idiots. So all of those hours you have spent infront of the computer have saved gaia. Without people like you, it just wouldn't be worth it. You're a savior. So I say thank you. For making Gaia worth it! And you deserve a vacation; A break from all of the PM's, the long hours, and all of the bother of fans. And I truly hope you get it In all best wishes, afuntime Offline afuntime · Community Member · Mon May 01, 2006 @ 12:53am


	~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ How could you be worthless?! You're my favourite mod ever! There's no way you are. If you honestly were, your PM inbox would be constant empty, would it not? ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Offline D34DLYN1GHTSH4D3 · Community Member · Sat May 13, 2006 @ 09:49pm


	ey cool character you got there 3nodding wink its cool lol Offline Kuroku_13 · Community Member · Thu May 25, 2006 @ 02:42am


	Aww, you're not worthless, i'm sure the other mods are stressed too with these kinds of cases. If you really don't like being an omnimod, you could always resign from a mod position or go back to being a purple mod again. gonk I don't think you are worthless though, you help people out and you should be proud of that, that you get to try and help people. 3nodding Also, you shouldn't hide your emotions under a mask, it doesn't make you seem human in a sense, or real, which could also make a bad report as well, since you aren't sincere about how you are acting. sweatdrop gonk gonk Oh yeahs, did you delete everyone from your buddylist? o_O Am I still on it? I'M STILL ALIVE DAMMIT. gonk crying crying Offline hikaruxanadu · Community Member · Thu May 25, 2006 @ 05:17am


	Dear, if you were worthless gaia wouldn't have chosen you to be a mod. It takes a great person to be chosen for something with as high of a position. Just because you get tired out easily, doesn't mean a thing. It just means you're DEDICATED. <33 Offline Snuggie · Community Member · Sun May 28, 2006 @ 08:15pm


	youre avi looks cool smile Offline GodnessAngel · Community Member · Tue May 30, 2006 @ 12:30pm

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