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I dont know if I could ever admit it to your face....but, I see how stupid I was. I mean. I would want to admit it...but theres a good chance you wouldnt believe me anyway lol...My bet is you'll find this journal like. a year or two from now x.x and who knows what you'll think. I read my entries and I feel like a bipolar....weirdo.
I feel even dumber that I text your phone once a day...And sometimes I wish I would just see I have a message from you.
I feel like I can talk more relaxed on here...like I can admit anything. Even though you've found everything out already x.x I'm proud of myself for never saying I hate you...because I never will. And if I ever did I feel like it would be because I hate myself. I wish I could interview myself and ask myself why I did what I did cause I'm still a bit unsure of it. I'm sooo awake right noowww...