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I must start off by telling you that I'm alone. In a dark room with nothing but the computer screen to light my face. It's cold and I'm shirtless, a gray blanket on my shoulders. I'm wearing pajama pants and my classes are on. I can feel breathing down my neck, but each time I turn, there is nothing. This room had something wrong with it and even just typing about it makes me feel cold, like any minute I'll be taken away and killed, or just disappear. A cold breeze drifts through my window, even though it's closed. It feels like winter and it makes my skin crawl. A sick smell hangs onto the wind, the smell of something... dead. I don't know what, but I can hear things tapping on my window. I'm afraid to look away from the screen, to see what it is. Afraid that the moment I look, I'll be taken away and killed. The clock on my computer isn't moving, and when I try to play videos they don't load. It's as if I'm stuck in some purgatory. Only closer to Hell. I want to turn around and go to my bed, but I can't move. It might get me. In the screen I can see it's reflection. It's got a sort of plague doctor mask, except the eye holes have blood around them, as if there were eyes there once but have long since been ripped out. Scratches all along the mask show that someone once struggled, and I can see how well that worked out for them. It's thin, impossibly so. Arms and legs like long black twigs, it's fingers are sharp. It's staring at me, it's hands are clasped together and it's legs are together so the feet stick in opposite directions. It's watching me with it's bleeding eyes. And it won't stop.

I'm tried to move and it got closer, just... appeared. It's hovering over my shoulder now. I don't even know why I'm ******** writing this. I'm so cold, so alone. I tried pulling the blanket closer but it's frozen and It feels like it ways a ton. It's a chain that's keeping me on the chair. I'm trying to focus on anything right now, the cup of water, the container of toothpicks. I can feel sweat dripping down and can't do anything about it. If I move it'll get closer and closer.

I sneezed. ******** sneezed and when my eyes blinked out it got closer. It wasn't in the back of the room, now I can feel it's nose from the plague doctor mask, er, face, touching my neck and I can hear it's raspy breath. It's whispering something I don't understand. Oh God, it's eyes! It's ******** eyes! I can see them! They're tiny white pupils that are so huge. I can't ******** look at them, they're a madman's eyes. I feel like I'm going insane, I can barely breath without it moving closer. I can't even see moving. It's like it's transporting an inch at a time. I must be going crazy, this has to be a trick.

It's not a trick and I can't even blink anymore, last time I did it got even closer. I didn't think it was possible. It's right above my head, I can barely see the reflection but the mask is lifted and I can see it's mouth. It's spread impossibly wide. It's open. It doesn't seem to end... just rows of teeth and then black. As if it's a cave or something. The skin is all gray and dead and tight around the mouth. This may be my last post so you know what happened. I'm going to blink again. I can't ******** stand it. I can't blink and I can't breath without it getting closer to killing me. I just want to end it.

I'm blinking. Goodbye.