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I love my girlfriend so much. I just want to make everything better for her. An she has bad days. An I just put everything on hold to try and fix it. I been failing. Nothing I have done works. An it kills me. I keep hearing stuff like "I'm use to it." It's a really crushing blow.

Sometimes I want to be taken care of. I don't hear "What's wrong?, Want to talk about it?, I'm here for you." But that's fine... I don't mind to much. I want it. But I don't have to have it.

I don't understand how her mind works sometimes. I really try to be easy going about everything. But I am tired. I don't know what to do. My mind feels like it is falling apart. I just clings to the fact that I love her and try to make myself feel better.

I do love her. I just vent. I love her more than words can say.

Like last night, I spent my time thinking about her while I was at work. I was missing her so much. I felt like she was calling to me to bed. Just wanting us to be together. An when I woke I was so happy when she text me. I got such a rush of happiness. Sadly it didn't last to long. She seem out of it. Made me pretty sad.

But that isn't here nor there. So I end this by saying I love her. An leave it at that.