I'm confusing and apparently I can never do anything right and can never keep any friends because they all leave or I drive them away or something I don't know.
My favorite food is soup and my favorite colors are the rainbow even though all I wear is black.
I love talking, I can be a chatterbox but then I can be extremely quiet because I think too much.
Most times I feel like everyone hates me or I'm just unlikeable.
All I want is to be loved, and I just want a best friend who understands me and I can tell anything to.
Late at night is when I think the most.
I really wish I could skype with someone right now .- .
I feel really lonely most of the time.. Almost everyday actually.
I love listening to dubstep, electro house, chillstep, punk, rock, indie, blah blah.
I have these weird feelings of wanting it to be winter all of the time so I can re-live memories...
I can never stop thinking about one person and it ******** sucks.
I cry a lot.
I'm one of those people who is very nice and sweet but hates so much of myself.. Ask anyone, they'll say I'm nice or sweet or some s**t.
I want to grow up and live my life but then again I don't want time to go so fast and I refuse to act like an adult.
If someone talks to me at for at least 20 minutes, I'll come up with fantasies about being best friends with that person just because of how much I want a best friend.
I play a little bit of Piano but I can't read sheet notes or music notes or whatever they're called.
I really want to learn to play guitar and I also want to be an electro house/ dubstep artist.
I also really want to sing in a chillstep song.
It's my dream to voice act and to act in general.
I consider myself as an artist and I wish I could sell my art.
I watch only one youtuber gameplay and that's Pewdiepie. I've always watched him do gameplays and I don't think that will change until I get uninterested in him.
My favorite game is The Walking Dead, it legit made me cry like a baby.
I like listening to piano versions and dubstep versions of songs.
There's a song called Emily by From First To Last and I was obsessed with it for the longest time.
I have tried to twerk before... I think I'm good at it I guess...
Alister Dippner is my favorite artist.
I still talk to two people I've met on Gaia two years ago.
I feel like I'm never good enough.
I feel unwanted.
I always have this thought of dying and seeing how everyone in my life would react when they hear the news... Some of the thought is really sad but then again I'm curious to see some people's reactions.
I want to be someone who would be in someone else's mind forever, and never be forgotten.
I think about a lot of people who probably forgot about me or who doesn't think of me often.
Re-reading some of these journals make me really emotional.
I ******** hate bugs.
I say the randomest s**t sometimes.
I'll have days when I have absolutely nothing to say and will keep quiet the entire day.
If someone says something stupidly funny, I'll laugh.
I honestly prefer Men's clothing than Women's. I just think guys have a better selection in clothing and I want to be a male hipster without anyone criticizing me.
I refuse to drink beer but I might try wine when I'm older.
I'm still surprised people think I look 16-19 when I wear makeup.
I need to go to sleep, school starts next week and I need to get my s**t together. (Meaning sleep)
I want to fall asleep while skyping with someone, but I have no one to skype.
I wish Sonny Moore would sing Emily for me
I have no idea what I'm going to do for my 16th birthday.. Can I have a free trip to Disney Land with just my friends?
My boyfriend's niece just messaged me on skype just now, I don't feel like talking about bands.
Im currently listening to CMA- Caught In Our Thoughts
^ Really chill and great song, I've been listening to it the whole time I've been making this journal.
One day I'm gonna look back at this and think "wow, did I really write all this because I had nothing else to and because it was summer and because I felt like s**t?"
I'm tire
d, goodnight.My favorite food is soup and my favorite colors are the rainbow even though all I wear is black.
I love talking, I can be a chatterbox but then I can be extremely quiet because I think too much.
Most times I feel like everyone hates me or I'm just unlikeable.
All I want is to be loved, and I just want a best friend who understands me and I can tell anything to.
Late at night is when I think the most.
I really wish I could skype with someone right now .- .
I feel really lonely most of the time.. Almost everyday actually.
I love listening to dubstep, electro house, chillstep, punk, rock, indie, blah blah.
I have these weird feelings of wanting it to be winter all of the time so I can re-live memories...
I can never stop thinking about one person and it ******** sucks.
I cry a lot.
I'm one of those people who is very nice and sweet but hates so much of myself.. Ask anyone, they'll say I'm nice or sweet or some s**t.
I want to grow up and live my life but then again I don't want time to go so fast and I refuse to act like an adult.
If someone talks to me at for at least 20 minutes, I'll come up with fantasies about being best friends with that person just because of how much I want a best friend.
I play a little bit of Piano but I can't read sheet notes or music notes or whatever they're called.
I really want to learn to play guitar and I also want to be an electro house/ dubstep artist.
I also really want to sing in a chillstep song.
It's my dream to voice act and to act in general.
I consider myself as an artist and I wish I could sell my art.
I watch only one youtuber gameplay and that's Pewdiepie. I've always watched him do gameplays and I don't think that will change until I get uninterested in him.
My favorite game is The Walking Dead, it legit made me cry like a baby.
I like listening to piano versions and dubstep versions of songs.
There's a song called Emily by From First To Last and I was obsessed with it for the longest time.
I have tried to twerk before... I think I'm good at it I guess...
Alister Dippner is my favorite artist.
I still talk to two people I've met on Gaia two years ago.
I feel like I'm never good enough.
I feel unwanted.
I always have this thought of dying and seeing how everyone in my life would react when they hear the news... Some of the thought is really sad but then again I'm curious to see some people's reactions.
I want to be someone who would be in someone else's mind forever, and never be forgotten.
I think about a lot of people who probably forgot about me or who doesn't think of me often.
Re-reading some of these journals make me really emotional.
I ******** hate bugs.
I say the randomest s**t sometimes.
I'll have days when I have absolutely nothing to say and will keep quiet the entire day.
If someone says something stupidly funny, I'll laugh.
I honestly prefer Men's clothing than Women's. I just think guys have a better selection in clothing and I want to be a male hipster without anyone criticizing me.
I refuse to drink beer but I might try wine when I'm older.
I'm still surprised people think I look 16-19 when I wear makeup.
I need to go to sleep, school starts next week and I need to get my s**t together. (Meaning sleep)
I want to fall asleep while skyping with someone, but I have no one to skype.
I wish Sonny Moore would sing Emily for me
I have no idea what I'm going to do for my 16th birthday.. Can I have a free trip to Disney Land with just my friends?
My boyfriend's niece just messaged me on skype just now, I don't feel like talking about bands.
Im currently listening to CMA- Caught In Our Thoughts
^ Really chill and great song, I've been listening to it the whole time I've been making this journal.
One day I'm gonna look back at this and think "wow, did I really write all this because I had nothing else to and because it was summer and because I felt like s**t?"
I'm tire
I Love You.
