So here I am, 22 days away from getting married. I should be working on finalizing my ceremony. I should be working on assembling guest favours and sparkler packs for the send off. I should be breaking in both pairs of shoes, or any of the seemingly endless little things that need to be done in the next three weeks. But I'm not.
Maybe I'm wedding'd out; it's been a whole lot of planning and doing on my own, and I'm exhausted. Maybe it's because I'm missing Mac, or I'm just stressed out in general - with a grandmother in the hospital, a father who's not doing so hot, and working dispatch for the last three months, I think I have a few reasons to be distressed.
I'm not nervous about the wedding. I think it's kind of funny, the number of people who are asking me if I am. I'm nervous about the rapidly declining state of things in Gaza and Ukraine, because with Mac in the military I watch international news differently. I'm nervous about trying to start a family right away. But not about getting married. I've been ready for this for a long time, and even with the hiccups of military life (being left behind for another three months while Mac goes on course right after our honeymoon *sigh*), I don't regret this choice.
I just have to get out of my own way and Super Bride it up for a few more days.
The Bookwyrm Community Member 
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