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I love that he's the last thing I see when I close my eyes to fall asleep every night. It's so nice to be able to see him all sleepy and adorable. It somehow makes it easier to sleep. Maybe it's because I'm too happy to worry about not sleeping. I don't know. But it's absolutely wonderful. And on the days that I can see him when I wake up absolutely makes my day. I love being able to see him in general. That's kind of what I'm getting at. He makes me happy, so of course I would love to see him constantly.

I never thought that it would be so nice to miss someone. Missing him is so hard, I just want to be with him and hug him and feel him next to me always. But, I enjoy missing him because that tells me that it's going to be absolutely wonderful when I get the chance to see him again. I will enjoy it so much more. I'm always looking forward to the next moment I will see him. It's always so exciting when I get to see him. I get all nervous and I want to look my best and it's pretty great.

I am happy to admit that I love him. And every time I hear him say it, I get butterflies in my stomach and I can't help but smile. Like a genuine smile. It's nice. And I don't know how to describe it, but I just get so happy. It's so wonderful to be able to feel like you matter to someone. And it's nice to think that maybe he is as happy as I am, and thinking about making him happy is nice.