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A moment, a shard of time..
Little things make me smile now. Mom came by today and dropped off some clothes and junk. Then she bitched about my choices for an hour. I ignored her; I've heard it all before. I got in trouble again today after being in trouble last night, but it doesn't matter. My whole family believes I'm going to drop out and head to New Jersey ASAP to be with Becca. She and I know they're wrong. I mean, I do love Becca more than anyone could imagine, but she and I agree that school must come first. Two months isn't that long after what we've been through. And I'm tired of hearing the same line over; "She lied to you about something as serious as a heart problem, who's to say what else she'll lie about?" Know what? I don't care. I love that girl so much that if she left me tomorrow I'd smile and wish her luck. I'd sit in the dark and wait for her to come back to me. At least I'm happy right now. I wake up every day solely because I have her. If I didn't, there'd be a tombstone with my name on it somewhere. I'm so tired of hearing how much of a failure I am, how pathetic and lazy I am, how stupid I am. ******** 'em all, you know? Everytime I hear the word "Soho" I flinch. I won't tell you why. It's 3 a.m. I've got one contact inbecause the other one dropped and I can't find it. Whatever. I'm really tired, so I'm gonna split.
I love you, Becca. I'd do anything for you, darling. Anything but stop loving you. Or be gay :] You are what keeps me going, sweetness. I keep hearing how my world revolves around you, but it's not true; you are my world. I hope we can have that family we wanted together. I hope we're together for the rest of eternity and then some. To infinity and beyond, baby. To infinity and beyond..
~Are-kun
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