well after being angry and pissy, i'm just out of it. nothing seems ro get my attonchon any more. i've; drawn, read abit of manga, watched some t.v.
i'm not sleepy but i just want to go to bed and at the same time i dont. i was just liying on the floor staring up at the celling, them i was staring at my walls... i had just did some art on then the other day; a week or so ago one of my mom's co-workers gave her a bunch of decko sets (thes sticker like thing that you put on your windows. or if you want wall, like i did) it looks pritty cool. it starts with a tree with vines comeing out form it the flowers off of the vines with leaves all around it then the leaves go off in to ways and the hole thing comes together at my bottem bed poll (i have a loft bed; its like a bunk bed but its only the top bunk anf abit higher) with more flowers to the sides of where i ran out of leaves and above the tree its a side viwe of gaia with differant colour and biger leaves for her hair (not the gaia were on but the spirit og the earth gaia)
when i was doing that i feelt the rush and that drane mebig time. its happined befor, i do someing big that drans me but this time i didint get my energy back, when i was out with my friend and we were playing DDR (come on! if you dont know DDR you dont desirv to know and i hope you at lest know what pockys are mad ) at my turn i failed at the 2ed stage. i know i picked some hard song but i was on light. i normaly do abit better.
maybe this time i did just lose it. i feel like nothing. i want to say stfu or ******** off to some people but i'm so out of it that i just to care. who know? may be i'll just fall asleep and not wake uop..... i do feel like that, and only that
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