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This is manly just about me so I know no leaves comments here half the time so Ill just say things about my life remembering it all


I remember my past I have a few very early memories I remember as a small child of three I needed brain surgery I don't remember anything leading to that I know that I ran into walls a lot and fell a lot the reason was I had a cerebellum cyst that is a bubble on the back of my cerebellum that's the part of your brain that controls motor functions
and balance....at any rate they had to put a vp sisit on it that's a small plastic tube that runs from my cerebellum it goes all the way down into my abdomen were my body reabsorbs the fluid now that I have explained that back to memories

I was in the hospital in what seemed like a cage I hated it I felt locked in like an animal I had I.V.s in me which hurt I had tape on me and they wanted blood all the time then I remember stitches I don't remember any more if those days

I also had a odd muscle problem that non of the doctors could figure out I got sick a lot and had a weak immune system so when I got sick it was bad once I got the cold and got sick for a month and had oddity's I had to be hospitalized for it

also I went to school and everyone made fun of me behind my back even though I could still hear them

the geneticist always wanted to run tests on me which meant needles lots of them I hate needles I just can't stand them and I don't know why most of my life I have never had a friend I felt very alone miss placed I always felt in my blood a call to something bigger adventure something were I could help people I just wished to be a hero to have people remember me and think "you know he did something he was good he did what he needed to...." I always wanted to be in the air force or army but I can't becuse of my body

one day I decided that I had to do something and started trainning I ate right and worked out (even though Ive always been scrowny) and before that I decided that I would care what people thought of me cuse if I did it would just hurt I still care but I try not to

maby Ill share more memories with you someday