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Ha~I actually feel happy right now. 3nodding

Why? whee Thank you Jblade for everything....advice, bein here for me, and bein my friend. Who could ask for a better person to know? I mean honestly, this girl has been here for me longer than anyone else I know. I mean...I can't thank you enough. Today began so depressing but it feels...alright now. Despite all the bad things going on, I'm kinda happy that it'll be okay...

I mean, Jblade made me feel like it would be ok without including any divine being. Just using her own common sense and experiance and her being a person you can honestly have faith in...I mean, whee I just trust her. I've known her for a long time, and I really trust what she says. 3nodding Just keep tellin myself it'll be ok someday gonk

RO is going good, and I finally found out why Josh is being such an a**. I'm mad at him at all, I just wish he woulda told me sooner. sad His dad's diein and his heart stopped on Sunday night....it started back up again though, his mom and sibilings get beat by his step dad, he's still ******** up over his last girlfriend bein shot to death infron of him, and he's terrified I am going to leave him. sad

I just....::sigh:: I dunno what to do. Like he doesn't sleep at all unless he has to 'cause he says he gets paranoid and s**t when he's sleeping. He said one time when he was younger he almost chocked to death on his blood when he was sleep. sad I feel so sad for him...I wish I could help him so much. Whenever I try to help, he pushs me away and it hurts so much when he does. He says if I try to do something to help I'll just make it worse...

I feel like a useless girlfriend....

I noticed, I seem to make friend where ever I go. I'm getting better at it...I'm proud of me. whee I was on RO FSin (which means healing and using support skills) this assasin and he said he thought I was cute. xd Before he siad that I gave him my MSN name and stuff and he said I was purdy. I told him I didnt' use my AIM name 'cause to many net perves know me and he laighed and asked why I was playing RO 'cause nothin but a bunch of lonley guys play anyway.

Ha... sweatdrop I was kinda shocked when he said that, I wonder if its true? gonk Thats a scary thing to think too...he lives in South Carolina and is movin to New York, xd he asked me if I wanted to visit him and I laughed. I just met this person and he's like 21 askin me to visit him. I dont... sweatdrop visit people I know on the net. First off, 'cause I'm just 17 and secondly and most importantly I'm poor crying

I'm hungry...and yea, sittin in class.

MSN won't work on the school PC anymore, they blocked the connection thing.

s**t...my head feels weird...so I'ma go now. Make anotha entry later. I lurve you guys heart wink

EDIT
Ha, my head feels funny but I knew I was forgettin somethin. xd

Chris won't get off my mind. crying