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As I walk through the shadows of darkness, I struggle
to find the perfect opening for which I must escape. Damned if I do, and damned if I don't, will I ever get anything right?

Each day I'm looking for the end of the pain and stife of life, yet it's like looking for the end of the rainbow or for a needle in a haystack. What happens next? Do I take a step towards the light and for fear that I will fall flat on my face, or do I stroll across the bridge and collect jewels of strength.

Half of me says, " Your a fool and you know it, what's your problem? Keep your facade on because nobody will ever like or accept the real you. Nobody wants an empathetic,honest, caring person. All THEY want is someone to agree with whatever they say or do."

For some reason, I'm still struggling to be accepted, into what; I don't know. What does it feel like for someone to like me for me instead of wanting to use me? It is like I have an invisible sign on my forehead that says, "Use me, I'm a sucker and a mat; go ahead and wipe your feet at my expense"

Once you've been walked on all your life, it's hard to determine what's real or a facade. Forrest Gump was right," Life is like a box of chocolates, you never know what your gonna get." But yet, as we reach in and take it; we can and must mold our lives without abusing it.

We, the world as one; must choose the right roads, otherwise we will end up in a never ending search for sanity, humanity, and unity.

Written By, Claysong/kokopelliqueen