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Wednesday, almost 1 pm. Okay, I had a bug on my computers and suddenly saw a lot of sheeps running around on my screen. Very annoying.

I'm lying on my bed and stare at the ceiling. I never knew that my room was so small. If you enter my room, the first thing you'll notice is the mess and the second thing would be my doll collection. they have stone faces. I look out of thewindow for a moment and I see some trees and flats. The park is about 5 minutes walking from here.

Anyway, have you ever wondered why you exist? I did and I still do. Somehow I still don't know why. Why am I here? What goal do I have in life? I have many goals. Graduate, get a well-paid job, buy a car and a house, maybe have children... But would that really be why I'm here? I don't think so...

I'm born in a small hospital in this town. When I was baptised as a little child, they said I was like a motherbird. And a predetor(did I spell that right?) tried to eat the baby birds. and a small unfamiliar bird came in my nest and the predetor wanted to eat it too. I was like a bird who would protect the children and the stranger when it was dangerous. I would become a great leader.

I never noticed anything of that. I never felt like a leader and I never protected someone. I don't think I'm the person who would protect strangers. I still wonder why they said that. Maybe we all have a goal in life (not becoming rich or getting children) but we can make our own destiny by the choices we make.

Example: I have good grades for english and science. I can choose to become a scientist or an english teacher. If I choose for english, I would be going to africa and live there, helping poor families. If I become a scientist I would make medicins and stuff like that. Different destinies, by making one choice.

So, my question to you is: If we have a bigger goal in life than getting children or becoming rich etc., what would it be? Why are we here?