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It's dark in the house and I'm all alone. I'm sitting on my bed, reading. Suddenly a flash of light fills my room, followed by the cracking sound of thunder. I hear my dog bark and I shiver. The thunder becomes louder and the lighting is a little purple-ish. I slowly walk to the window and I see that one of the trees is on fire. I jump from the lightning and hide under the blanket. Then I wait, count, 'till it's over. Later I wake up and hear that my family is home and the thunder has stopped.

I'm afraid of thunder. I have been afraid since I was little. Fear... What is fear exactly? It makes the strongest humans weak. But what is it? A warning for danger? There are many things I fear. Fire, Thunder, Death... my dreams...

I've had these dreams since autumn 2006. "visions" about people dying and weirder things. But also about nice things. One dream scared me a lot. It even made me cry.

I was on a field. There were no other people, I was all alone. Suddenly the field changed. The grass became black and I saw war. My family was fighting and they all died. The field changed again and I saw blood. My friends were lying in the grass. Dead. I started to cry and the field changed again. The one I loved most was standing in front of me. He smiled slightly and he walked to me, falling in my arms. His eyes were filled with fear and hatred and he whispered: "you let us die. I hate you." Then he died in my arms. Everything disappeared and I was alone again. In front of me was a graveyard. On the graves were written the name of my friends. One grave caught my eye and I walked to it. It carried the name of the one I loved most. I sat down against the back of the grave, crying, and I fell in an endless sleep.

I don't understand fear. I never did. And I think I never will understand it. So I can't explain what it is. The only thing I know is that everyone has fear....