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To look at you It pains me now to look at you. Afraid you may not love me too. I tell you how I feel inside. And I can't help but feel you're trying to hide from me. You hesitate and run away. I want to tell you so much more. But you wouldn't understand the depth And if you did, you wouldn't look at me the same way. I would be a beast to you. I would be your embarrassment. Your disappointment. Your secret that no one else should dare discover. I would be dead to you. I'm afraid. That's right Afraid. Afraid of you. Yes you heard me right, I'm afraid of you. I am afraid to talk to you because of the things I might profess. I am afraid to think of you becuase of the ideas that come to mind. I am afraid to touch you because of my unbridled wishes and desires. I am afraid to stay with you because my dreams shatter at the realization that they can never be. I am afraid to love you because you wont love me the same way back. I am afraid to look at you because I don't want to see your expression. when you reject me. I am afriad to have you find me when I take myself. What did I do to make you so resistant of me? What can I do to make you come back to me? Why do you hate me??

Posted by: Kida Yuri Tue Oct 26, 2004 @ 10:04pm

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Yunako Aori
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Commented on: Sun Oct 31, 2004 @ 12:21am


	oooh, well I'm sorry for you that you have to feel that way about that person. But I'm sure that they don't hate you. Why would they?

Commented on: Thu Nov 04, 2004 @ 10:07pm


	Quote: oooh, well I'm sorry for you that you have to feel that way about that person. But I'm sure that they don't hate you. Why would they? Because maybe they've found someone new and they find me a bother to be around. Because maybe they're just fed up with dealing with me and I won't go away. Because maybe they don't exactly know that they're actually doing it but rather than look at the circumstances they push further. Honestly, I don't know why they hate me..... They won't tell me anything anymore. They won't tell me why, what's going on, what they need, what they don't want, etc. etc. Because I don't know the deal with them, I don't know how to fix it. If they could step up to the plate and just tell me or just even talk to me and only me for a little while so that I still feel like I'm a part of the picture, I wouldn't feel like they hate me and I would be able to grasp a better idea of what's going on and what to do myself... I am at such a loss here...

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Andrea Tyler
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Commented on: Sun Nov 07, 2004 @ 01:51am


	well, I hope that the meanie poohs who seem to hate you can get over themselves whee

Commented on: Tue Nov 23, 2004 @ 09:38pm


	You're afraid of this person because although there are so many things you want to say and do you feel as though they'll reject you. It must be hard to go through that.

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