He called me yesterday. Kind of. I couldn't focus on my homework while I was waiting for him to call, so I called him. He said he was just about to pick up the phone because he noticed the time. If I hadn't called he would have called me. The conversation went well. I was happy and giggly and I ended up busying him. It ended abruptly after that, but I couldn't be dissappointed. I was told I was good. Also, it was 9pm and I still had lots of homework (most of which did not get finished).
He kissed me on the forehead today. Whether out of reaction or because he really wanted to, I'm not really sure. I asked him yesterday not to kiss me just to make me happy, because I don't need that kind of pity. It only gives me false hope and that hurts worse than no hope at all sometimes. Today was ok, except for in theatre. Its annoying when you're trying to focus on work to keep yourself from crying (and to save your chemistry grade) and you have someone trying to start conversation with you. I'm a decent multi-tasker, but I can't talk and do work well at the same time.
At lunch we stood around a group of people he knows. He seems so much more social this year. Maybe I just kept him from seeing those friends last year, or maybe I helped in making him more social. I don't know. But I don't mind hanging around them so much, even if He doesn't focus most of his attention on me (greedy, I know, but if you knew him you wouldn't blame me). He seems more playful around them. I want him to be playful around me too. They are strange people, and for some reason they think we're still a couple. They're nice though, and he doesn't seem to mind them calling me his girlfriend and I certainly don't mind them calling him my boyfriend. Maybe he just hasn't noticed.
He walked with his arm around me to the place where we split to go to class. He was hugging me close. I hope it's not just out of pity. Andhe met me on the corner after school to say goodbye. Again, it may have just been a coincidence.
I went to a friend of mine's birthday party on the weekend and spent the night at yet another friend's house. It was pretty fun. In fact, it was the most fun I've had in awhile. Its been so long since more than just a pair of us hung out. A phone call made the day. A friend of the friend now has no respect from his mother. It made us laugh.
A friend's boyfriend is being an a**. Hpw can some one be so cold as to break up with someone the day after her birthday? Not to mention telling her about it before hand. It's like awaiting your execution. He better have a good reason, not just some lame a** guy excuse. I'll kick his a** if he doesn't. But my friends has decided to enjoy the time left. A good decision. If She wasn't so attatched I would tell her to be cruel and break up with him the day before her birthday and do something petty. The nurses would help. Have them give her a pass to pull him out of class, announcing loudly that he has some a**l leakage disease which needs urgent medication. But I know how she feels. I would not do the same to theo ne I'm in love with, even if everyone says I should.
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