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Once again I have been thinking about that guy. Wondering everything possible during the time I should be asleep. I feel so empty like my heart is gone. Its like he has my heart and I need to get it back as soon as I can. My mind has been messing with me I just keep bringing myself to think about whether he likes me or not.
I decided to take this up with my friends. My friend told me that I shouldn't even try that I am pushing my luck thinking that he will like me and even thinking of confronting him will be the worse thing for me. While the next text she sends she says that someone will like me and I am a great person. The thing is I have lost a lot of confidence when it comes to liking people and my friends words really hurt. Though one side of me tells me doesn't like me I keep hopeing that he does. I want to have confidence that people actually do like me instead of assuming rejection.
My second friend told me he just might. That when he looks at him when he looks at me there is something there. The way he acts is different. Though I don't know how he knows and why can't I notice these things. I just wish there was a way to figure things out without being so complicated.
At least now I know that though friends are good at times its best to leave them out of most of your personal matter though some crushes and things are fun and you can talk with your friends about them there are times where it is best to keep it to yourself and make your own desicions because not only can the guy hurt you but, even worse your friends do.