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Today was a weird day. On a day like today I would normally, go to Tae Kwon Do, come home and east lunch, and then do my summer homework for school. I didn't do my homework, but rather played on my DS and then played on my Computer. It just didn't feel right. This whole day didn't feel right.

People, and I mean a lot of people, tell me I have to move on. I Don't Want To Move On! I love her. I love her more than anything. I would give anything to get her back... I miss her. I miss being able to put my arm around her. I miss seeing her. I miss hearing her talk. I miss her walking up to me at school, and holding my hand, and asking if everything is okay if I wasn't smiling as much as I normally do.

After what happened she doesn't love me, she hates my guts but doesn't and gets mad at me very easily. I lay awake for a long time at night and cry. The tears are always warm, warming my cold face, until the tear rolls of my nose and falls on my shirt.

My days have never been the same, since she broke up with me the first time. That same night she realized how much she really did love me, and she asked if i would take her back. With my love for her, I took her back in an instant. We had another month or two of memories together. Then she broke up with me again. She said I was too much to handle, and she needed time to think. Two days later she kept calling and trying to get through to me. To tell me that she would give me another chance. Not even five days past and she broke up with me again. She got over me in less than a day. She moved on...

I hate this. So much.
"When the lights go down in the city
And the sun shines on the bay
I want to be there in my city
Ooh, ooh
So you think you're lonely
Well my friend I'm lonely too
I want to get back to my city by the bay
Ooh, ooh"

Goodnight