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0. A wise man once said "There's a very thin line between caring, compassionate girlfriend and psycho b***h. A VERY thin line." He had a point.

1. I've discovered that I have tolerance issues. Not with alcohol or drugs ~ I don't do those. I have them with people. It's like I can be really patient and understanding up to a point, but once that point is passed it's kind of no holds barred, take no prisoners, you piss me off and I disembowel you. I kind of don't like this about myself, but it's a bit hard to control.

2. I also have issues when it comes to letting stuff go. I understand the logic of it and I get how to do it, but I'm just not able to do it after a while. It's kind of like stuff builds up and then I reach the limit and I can't let go of stuff anymore. It's weird, because some of my friends call me a "marshmallow" (softie), but it's like I have a flip side that's more like a meat shredder. It's not really a great trait either.

3. It's easier to be happy on a full stomach. I've noticed that I tend to be more depressed/depressing if I'm hungry, but when I eat things seem to get better. I think this is kind of why people have "comfort foods" and why peeps who are depressed eat a lot sometimes.

4. I have some pretty good friends. They're all fairly different people, but they all have pretty amazing qualities. It's not that I really search out people to be my friends ~ it's more like I go along and if someone seems like they'd get along with me I say "hi".

5. I cut my hair. I CUT MY HAIR. Actually, a friend cut it for me. It used to be waist long without any bangs (more like they were as long as the rest). Now, it's still waist long, but minus 3 inches and many split ends and I have bangs. BANGS. I haven't had bangs since I was in 4th or 5th grade. My bangs are jaw length and taper downward to blend over my shoulders with the main bunch of hair. It kind of reminds me of anime hair. Is pretty cool.

6. I'm a conflicted person. Not that this is anything new or anything. It's not just the conflict between "feeling" and "logic", but there's arguments between various logics and different feelings. It's kind of tiring. I'm going to end up sleeping for a full 24 hours some day.

7. My hair tends to be shinier and more soft feeling after I've cut it. It's pretty weird when you think that hair is a dead thing anyway ~ yet there's a significant difference to the whole mass from just a trim.

8. I'm becoming a bit of a Harry Potter junkie. I'm not really a fan girl ~ I'm not in love with any of the characters (special liking for Sirius and Remus, though). I used to be a serious fan-type person ~ listened to the books on tape over and over and could quote bits of the books by heart. I got off it for a while, though. Now I'm back on.

9. I'm reverting to my old habits of manga and anime. A little more than a year ago from now I was a serious addict, but stuff in my life changed and I took a break. Now I'm back on again. There is a shirt that says "Yaoi: My Anti Drug". Well, anime and manga are more like my anti depressants (and anti drugs). This is fine with me because I'd worried that I'd never go back to them, but the reasons for the reversion aren't so happy.

10. Sites like Facebook and Twitter are strange. They encourage people to post about and comment on smallish details of their own and other's lives. I actually use Facebook and I kind of understand the addiction one could get to posting bits of their own life, but if you think about it closely, it's kind of a strange thing to do.