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1. People are constantly searching for a reason to exist or the reason why they exist. Frankly, I think it's great to have a purpose to live and all that, but I don't think one should be distressed if they don't have one. You exist because you exist. That ought to be enough. In a lot of ways, I think it's better to let a reason find you, than to go seek out a reason. It's like the difference between searching for a chair and finding a chair you like accidentally ~ the chair you find by accident will probably suit you better than the chair you find while searching, because you weren't focusing on finding it.

2. I have an issue with the "You're adopted, so no one loves you." thing. Frankly, if you're adopted you have a better chance of your adopted parents loving you than if you were born to said parents. Babies are born all the time and raised by parents who didn't have them intentionally. If you're adopted, it was definitely intentional on the part of your adoptive parents. That's not to say that parents who raise blood offspring don't love them just as much, though.

3. A strange, but wise man once said "Teen love lasts forever. The problem is, the teens run out." Said man also pointed out that "love" is actually just a bunch of chemical reactions in the brain. Stupid hormones. All the spiritual mushy romantic idealism people put behind love and it's just a bunch of reactions. I guess that sums up pretty much everything humans are. That's depressing and reassuring at the same time. I kind of like thinking of humanity (myself included, of course) as organic machines.

4. I've noticed that I don't stress out over a lot of things that my friends stress out over. I guess it goes back to the "floating apathy" thing, but the things in my life always seem to come together and work out without too much pressure. Not to say that I don't work hard. And not to say that they always come out for the best. But it's like the saying "whatever will be, will be." It doesn't do any good to worry over things you can't change or that will happen anyway.

5. You know how people always think something is wrong with their appearance, even when it isn't. I don't know if I have the same problem or the opposite, but if I look at myself in the mirror I like what I see. I mean, I have stuff I'd like to get rid of, but, overall, I like how I look. However, if I look at myself in picture (especially from the side or some other angle) I look HORRIBLE. I hate it, but I don't know what to think. I suppose a logical answer would be that I look good when posing, but in normal life I'm not so great. Ah, well. It doesn't really matter that much. I'm only in high school, after all.

6. My mom brought up a very good point the other day. If someone's parents didn't take good care of them, they aren't likely to take care of themselves very well either. I suppose this depends on the type of person, too, but I think it's true. My parents always focused on healthy eating and not doing drugs/alcohol/smoking and whenever I'm cooking for myself I try and make something healthy and I have strong feelings about using drugs and alcohol and whatnot. Frankly, I think doing something that is known to be damaging to ones health, for whatever reason, is stupid. Obviously, there are circumstances where such a thing is needed to prevent something even worse or to ease discomfort, but, when it comes to smoking and drinking ~ it's just stupid.