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Day-12: Love?
Love is like tug-o-war no matter what you do it pulls on you, for myself I had a long distance relationship I lived In Edmonton, Alberta, Canada for those who know Canada and now I live in Surrey, British Columbia, Canada for about a year I was engaged in this relationship and it was going fine but it became tedius(sp?) to the point of insanity I needed the touch of a woman and I was loyal to the bone. Then a year later a met a friend of mine he was cool but then his neighbour came down to do laundry she looked like Goddess to me. No it wasn't the horimons playing with my mind she was myjestic, later on we got to know eachother and we finally one day she was sitting beside me and shivering and I asked her "are you cold" and she replyed "y-yesss" through her chattering teeth so I offered her to sit in my lap and use me to warm up and she agreed and she sat down, she rested her head against mine and I could smell her sweet hair..green apples if I can recall but my friend went inside to do dishes she pushed off me and looked right into my eyes her blue saffire eyes just locked me in I couldn't look away, she caress my face with her smooth hand and I moved in with light kiss and then on were inseperble(sp?). My girlfriend from edmonton called me the other day actually 2 days ago and she says to when I answered "oh my god I thought something happen to you!" I was silent and she knew from the silence something was wrong...and I said plainly "Chendel I don't think this relationship is going anywhere we are too far from eachother and we can never see eachother...you know hard it is go without your touch..a year is too long..." all I heard was her cries over the phone..this hurt me it always hurts me seeing a woman cry..every hero as a weakness, I'm not saying a hero..but I said to her "we got to end this now..go date people Chendel" then one question came from her "do you still love me?" I paused and I thought to myself "of course I love you Chendel and there is always love for you in me but maybe another time something might work out" then her sniffles came out "but will there be another chance us?" she asked me and simply replied "you know what I don't know that myself I can't answer that..but you never now we might" she went very quite "I still love you Landon..." and that ended that phone call. This happen in real life and to this day... I'm lost I feel for my Girlfriend from here but the one in Edmonton is making me tear up my mind..and my question is...Was what I said right? did I do the right thing?
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