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i dont know what to do nm.... im always upset about things... i still break down over my ex cause i still love him but yet i love 2 other guys. my bf and one of my friends... i dont expect any 1 to understand me cause nm 1 does. i cant talk to any 1 cause they r not helping with the problem. in ways every 1 just makes my problems worse when i need someone to talk to.... i miss cedric so much that i cant stand it... i want him by myside so badly. i wish that none of this has happend and life could just go back to its normal self b4 cedric went to jail.... life was better and ik that i had problems in the past but now since i look at it it wasnt that bad... and now im away from cedric and i cant stand it... i really need to see him... to be in his arms again... when i see him again im going to give him a hug and cry in his arm. and ask and beg to never put me thro hell again... </3 ik i have a bf but... i cant get over cedric my ex... its just to hard for me to get over him... i have tried and tried as hard as i could... i had a nightmare once where me and cedric stoped talking and me and my bf right now broke up and i still had big feelings for cedric and i still loved him but he is engaged... even tho he says he will never find anyone else... but he doesnt know... personaly i think he will. cause there is alot of very pretty girls out there and omg he is hot and he is kind caring loving nice... and alot more he is amazing. so he will find some 1 else and if me and my bf break up and cedric is taken i guess i would be lonley until someone else come.... like maybe my friend (not saying any names exept cedrics since im not putting his last name and to protect him) uk what i will just go ahead and put their first names to since no one can find them. im only saying their first names not last names. im only doing that to protect these people but my bfs name is robert and my friends name is jeff. thats all im going to say im not giving out middel names, last names, ages, b-days, where they live, or anything else. i will be nice enough to put their first names and that is about it. and it doesnt matter anyways no 1 reads my s**t. no one is caring enough to read my journal entry and leave a comment or at least read it. no one does that cause no one gives a ******** to read my s**t. but since i like typing more then writting then i will type this on here anyways since 1. u dont know me 2. im safe 3. im bored 4. have alot on my mind 5. dont want to write in my diary and i think thats about it. idk i have a lot of reasons y i do this. but i g2g since no one cares to read this
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