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had a very weird dream last night. it was acctually about my bf. the dream was about how my bf and one of my friends were keeping things from me. and i found out somwtime and somehow that he was cheating on me. the reason y for this dream is because i think that he is cheating on me. but everytime when i ask he says that he isnt. or everytime when i tell him that i think he is he will tell me that he isnt. so i dont know what to believe nm. im thinking so hard because i love my bf but i still love cedric. i miss the time that me and cedric spent togeather. cause we were togeather alot. me and my bf on the other hand we dont hang out so much. and he doesnt tell me everything that i need to know. he doesnt tell me the important stuff. the thing i find very weird is how we were planning on hanging out at my mammaws on friday and he stayed here where im at but he said that he cant then at school he said that he was going to his friends house. does that make any sence at all? i dont understand. we dont hang out a whole lot and at school he is around his friends all the time. and he never tries to take the chance to hang out with me. if cedric had the chance to hang out with me he would take that chance to hang out with me. and he would take the chance to talk to me. i love cedric. and i miss him sooooo much that its not even funny of how much i miss and love him. cedric isnt out of jail yet his court was postponed to may 5. im so pissed he is going to stay there longer and i cant stand the thought of him being in jail this long. and i cant do anything about it. i dont have money so i cant get him out and i really want to get him out. but i g2g b4 i get depressed