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Yea, me and Shadow's mom talked again. She's being so protective of him and I wish I had the same thing, I'm so jealous of him. Well, this is how our chat went. His mom talked every few mins until she eventually left. 3nodding

Chris : check your email
Courtney : What am I looking for? Who is this? Am I allowed to be talking to whoever this is?
Chris : I do not like most of those questions she asked
Courtney : Me? I'm sorry
Courtney : I didn't mean to m'am?
Chris : no it's me
Courtney : I see, hey Chrissy how are you?
Chris : moms back
Chris : check your email
Courtney : What am I looking for?
Courtney : I dont have any new mail
Courtney : Oooo I see now
Courtney : XP Oy...here I go...
Courtney : Shall I answer them here or via email?
Chris : email
Courtney : Um, ok. I will do them now
Chris : What's taking you so long to answer some simple questions
Courtney : I'm sorry I'm trying to answer them to the best of my abilities
Chris : It doesn't take much to be truthful
Courtney : I'm explaining things as well, I'm sorry its taking so long
Courtney : There you are, its sent
Chris : Your reply has not come yet but it is almost time for Chris to go to bed. You have until 10:30 to talk. Also, Chrissy is a girl's name. My son's name is CHRIS.
Courtney : Yes ma'm
Chris : I will be reviewing what you've talked about so beware. Chris can also explain to you how I can totally cut off all access including school.
Courtney : Yes ma'm,
Chris : told you i was tabbe
Chris : *tabbed
Courtney : Bummber
Courtney : *Bummer
Chris : Yea really
Courtney : My mom is home but she hasn't said a thing to be abotu the laptop
Courtney : Your really lucky man, I wish my mom cared like yours does
Chris : I know moms intention are good
Chris : Sigh it makes me sad
Chris : almost
Chris : but well sad for you
Courtney : I could probably go missing for days and she wouldn't start looking for me until I had to cook or something because she doesn't feel like it
Chris : I wish your mom cared more
Courtney : Eh, dont worry about it
Chris : That's not as easy as it seems
Courtney : I dont care about my situation I am more concerned about your's I'm really sorry Chris
Chris : Sorry for what
Courtney : Can I only call you Chris? Like...no variations on the word?
Chris : There's nothing to be sorry about
Courtney : I didnt mean to make her mad about anythign I was just saying
Courtney : I dint mean word I meant name XP
Chris : I even told her that i allowed you to call me that
Courtney : Your mom makes me so nervous I was trying to tyoe the messsage faste but I kept shakin
Courtney : *type
Chris : It's not that bad when you call me by that name but whne nyeisha does then theres a problem
Courtney : I didnt mean to offend her or anything or your name, I mean
Courtney : lol
Chris : I know
Chris : Mom just cares a lot
Courtney : Your so lucky she does
Chris : and when you care a lot things like this tend to happen
Chris : I think atleast all of my friends have been tested in someway
Courtney : Aww~you always made it seem like she didnt care at all XP You were so wrong
Chris : even if it wasn't directly
Courtney : XD
Courtney : Your mom rocks
Chris : She judges by behavior of my friends
Chris : wait what
Chris : I made it seem liek she didn't care
Courtney : I mean kinda you did, but perhaps I misintrperted information
Chris : MAybe
Courtney : Beh...sorry
Chris : I've been doing that a lot lately
Courtney : Hey, can you read my essay for me its due on Friday and I need peer reviews
Courtney : Been doing what lately?
Chris : misinterpreting info
Chris : in my head
Chris : like my essays
Courtney : Like what? XD
Chris : I thoguht i was doign wrong because it didn't seem right
Chris : but I was actually doing it right
Courtney : Did you do that?
Chris : no
Courtney : Ewww
Chris : waiot do what
Chris : make the confrecne room
Courtney : Make the talk thing pop up
Chris : no
Courtney : Ah...sure
Courtney : Eh
Courtney : How do we fix it?
Chris : It's acts of the supernatural
Courtney : XD
Chris : XD
Courtney : man I'm so happy I can talk to you now
Chris : Yea eve nif it is only for a few min
Courtney : My day feels so brightened, I think I can sleep tonight /ok
Chris : I have faking smiles all day
Courtney : lol, Sometime is better than no time
Courtney : I've...eh...cried today XP Never thought I would cry in public
Chris : I almost did
Chris : But i din't
Chris : no matter how sad i am
Courtney : And my mom wouldnt come get me from school either so I had to keep like...puttin my head down and crap XP
Chris : i never cry
Courtney : lol
Chris : well
Courtney : Well I'ma girl and we cry when were sad
Chris : unless something unfortunate happened to mom and dad
Chris : then I cry
Chris : Mom and do so much for me
Chris : Yet
Chris : most of the time if not at all I don't seem to appreciate it
Chris : It makes me so sad
Courtney : Awwm dont be sad
Chris : Jsut like now
Courtney : I bet there's lots of stuff my mom must do that I dont relize, and my dad too
Chris : Mom got me dad and nicole new pc charis
Courtney : Aww
Courtney : ^^ Thats nice of her
Chris : *chairs
Chris : Yes it is
Chris : brb
Courtney : ok
Chris : backables
Chris : I went to give mom a hug
Courtney : WB~! ^^
Courtney : Aww
Chris : Ty~!
Courtney : Thats so sweet~! ^^
Chris : Yea I should have done it before
Chris : but i had my hands full puting the chairs together
Courtney : lol
Chris : I don't like showing when i'm sad
Chris : That's why i've been faking smiles all day
Courtney : That sucks
Courtney : Why do you fake?
Chris : Idon't know
Chris : Wait
Chris : yes i do
Chris : When your sad
Chris : ppl tend to ask questions
Chris : too many questions
Chris : when i'm sad
Chris : I don't feel like answering any questions
Chris : but most ppl can't get that through their thick skulls
Chris : just leave me alone
Chris : I don't want their help
Courtney : But maybe their helpmight make you feel better
Chris : because The reason for my sadness I can fix on my own
Chris : might
Courtney : But still, its always better to have someone elses help
Chris : but the help they give jsut about always useless
Courtney : Some help is better than no help
Chris : and most of the time
Chris : They can't help anyway
Courtney : Your mom said I sent you on a guilt trip and I'm sorry and don't worry I'll make myself pay for that
Courtney : Of course they can help
Chris : I hope you don't paln on hurting yourself
Courtney : Hey, c'mon now don't worry about me
Chris : alls you have to do is apoligize there is no need to damage youself
Courtney : Your the important one here ^^
Courtney : Dun worry about me, alright? You have more important things to think about
Chris : Hey so what if i'm the importnat one here
Chris : That doesn't mean I can't care about you still
Chris : I care if you hurt yourself
Chris : BEcasue you shouldn't have too
Courtney : I don't want you to care about me anymore, it just gets you in trouble and I never meant for this to happen at all
Chris : no it does not
Chris : don't even think liek that
Courtney : So just dont so your mom won't be upset
Courtney : I'm sorry you have to go through this
Chris : No
Chris : I won't
Chris : I'm being truthful about my feelings
Chris : and I care about you
Chris : crap
Chris : I ahve to go now
Courtney : I had to go a long time ago XD
Courtney : I just wante dto stay so I could talk to you
Chris : Well don't go yet
Chris : I'm sure mom will want to talk to you again
Chris : now that the email finally came through
Courtney : I'm nervous again
Chris : Don't be
Chris : As long as your truthful
Courtney : I can't I didnt sleep last night and I have a test in chemistry tommrow
Chris : You sholdn't have to be nervous
Chris : Dont' let her intimidate you
Courtney : I am being truthful, I don't have any reason to lie but I'm so scared I'll say something bad and she will hate me
Chris : Jsut answer truthful
Chris : *truthfully
Courtney : I dunno what to say I have never been in such a situation
Chris : She won't hate you
Chris : I'm sure of it
Courtney : God I must sound like such an idiot now XP
Courtney : Oy....::sigh::
Chris : No you don't
Chris : Just be truthful no matter how bad it may be
Chris : I'm sure mom will understand
Courtney : Oh I plan to be, XP I have nothing to lie about
Chris : Good
Courtney : This is just an akward situation
Chris : I know what you mean
Chris : I msut go now
Chris : hopefully will talk again soon
Courtney : Alright, I understand
Courtney : Yea...soon...
Chris : Love You
Courtney : Love you to, Chris ^^
Courtney : Wait am I staying or what?
Chris : You might want to
Chris : I'll ask mom
Courtney : I'd like to sleep but if I gotta talk to your mom I will stay
Courtney : XP Please I hope she lets me sleep
Courtney : I can't afford another B in chem
Courtney : *C
Chris : XD
Chris : It;'s okay
Chris : You can go
Courtney : Thanks~! ^^
Chris : that was what she said
Courtney : We did review today but I couldnt focus XP
Chris : you not talking to her btw
Chris : XD
Courtney : XD
Chris : Sleep well
Courtney : You to ^^
Courtney : And sleep this time
Chris : have a great day in school tomorrow
Chris : YEa i can now
Chris : bye
Courtney : Bye bye

So yea...I dunno why I am posting this. I just feel I should...someone comment and adise me, please~! gonk

It seems like Chris has finally woke up to all those things I warned him about. I wish it wouldnt' of had to come to this though. He's changing alot...I think I'll lose him for sure. cry That thought hurts me so much and I feel like I am slowly dieing inside at the thought.

I don't know what to do...