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Maybe I'll start typing these out more often, it helps a little I suppose.

I'm not one to type out in great detail how my day went, but today it was thankfully uneventful. It was nice having a break from the unfortunate events that seem to happen to me more often than they should. Though, I did have an anxiety attack yesterday. Those are really quite terrible, and if you've never had one you are very lucky. I'm not entirely sure what it was over, maybe it had to do with the events I'm trying desperately to get over. Even though mentally I haven't fully recovered, I've stopped crying every single night, but I haven't stopped completely. Maybe I can thank someone I met recently for that, I really do enjoy talking to her and it seems that she does care. Well, I hope she does anyways, I would be really grateful.

Recently I've been also losing a lot of sleep. Yesterday I ended up taking a tablet of Melatonin and one Unisom. I know it's probably not the best thing for more, the Unisom, but I'm not entirely sure what else I should do. If I don't sleep then I can't function properly. Hopefully I can get onto a regular sleep pattern soon though..

This will be the last thing I write for the night. Sometimes I wonder who is actually reading what I type. It's not the best thing to read, and I know it's rather depressing. Hell, I'm not even that great at writing these, most of the time they're jumbled together. Sometimes I wish it was a certain person checking up on me, but I'm sure that isn't true. I ******** things up too thoroughly for that, I wouldn't even blame her for hating me. Besides, I hate myself too.