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I'm tired of living here..

I need to get away from this.. Everything.. All I hear everyday are arguments, my father bitching at me, terrible news, drama.. So much bloody drama.. It's not good for me, everyday it kills me a bit more inside.. Ever since I was a little girl I couldn't stand anyone yelling at other people or even myself, it hurts me. But.. Even if I do manage to get away I have no where to go, no one to look forward to.. In a way, I'm stuck. I don't know.. I just feel sort of helpless.. And I don't think I could live completely alone. In all honesty, that thought of loneliness terrifies me. Even just sitting alone in my room makes me anxious, I normally have to walk out every 30 minutes if not sooner. I really don't like this, but it's just who I am. Maybe I'll figure something out.. I don't really know at this point in time..