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I feel so trapped in his world, it's closing in on me..and I can't breath...am I alone? People keep stepping on me but somehow I keep bouncing back but how many time can I do that? The darkness in my heart is growing and I feel that I'm going insane and I hold back to protect you all. Sometimes I need people to get away from me! I need freedom maybe that why I escape to a fantasy world to ease the pain... I know there is people like myself confused and trapped but I feel alone and lost... There isn't enough help to cure me of the pain sometime I ignore it then people trigger the memeories of people and what they done to me..they left their mark and I HATE THEM ALL!!! The only time I feel secure is when Im in my girlfriends arms the world seems to fade. I want something real..but I keep falling on my face and nothing to gain. The old memories of my father still plagues me..he was never around...I see other father loving their sons. and I feel left out even my mom got remarried the "father" I have nowjust doesn't...like my own...that why I'm trapped...

light-twister
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Tue Dec 07, 2004 @ 05:38am

the feeling of being trapped is normal trust me.i feel like that 24/7 and i can't do nuttin about it.it is pretty scary to because u dont know which way yur life will turn.yur either good or bad.right now i am leaning more towards the bad but hey s**t happens.

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