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<center> I'd Do Me If I Were A Guy
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I can't remember why I'm making this entry... sweatdrop
I'm sleepy and my memory is bad....I keep forgettign stuff. I doubt I'll even remember this entry.
The book I'm writing for literature class and I'm trying to put myself into the world of it and get focused on doing it...but I can't.
This is on ******** up time to have a writers block stare And I give my presenation first on Monday stare ...I meant Tuesday sweatdrop No school Monday 'cause its MLK day blaugh
So I give it first on ********, I shoulda bought some candy gonk
...eh, I don't care ::yawn::
Teh, no talk to Kevin all day today. sad
No talk to Onii-san either, but I never do on teh weekends so its all gewd.
I got on MSN to talk to Sephy, Sephy ish so kewl whee heart
Slasher ish playign video games, so no talk to him.
I had to call my friend Brad today for some tech stuff. sweatdrop I never call my friends from school and it was weird....but I weasled the info I needed out of him so its all gewd.
I dunno if I mentioned it or not.... sweatdrop but that bar down the street I used to sneak into burned down crying I drove past it today (with my mom 'cause I'm still to scared to drive sweatdrop ) and a new bar is there. I'm done sneakin into bars though. I'm done going to partys too. I'm ready to 'grow up', 3nodding I've had my fun and I'm ready to let go and move on.
I don't know what college I want to go to. I'm a junior and I just...don't know what to do. I'm sick of school, I wish I could just not work forever and be happy. But this is the real world and I'll be one of those 18yr olds in college as a little freshmen. If its what college was like when I was at UofM this summer then I don't have anything to worry about---expect speaking up in class. I know the material I just don't participate. sweatdrop
...I think I'm pretty. redface Teh, if I was a guy I'd do me 3nodding
Oh~! I found a new band to love~! heart
:;sighs dreamily:: They're called "FM Static"~I love their CD What are you waiting for?, so great heart
They remind me of the old Blink 182 I was in love with whee . They're songs are so pretty and most on teh CD I copied from the crazy white boy in school are about these girlies. Its so great~! I wonder if guys thinks of me like that xd It would be soooooo kewl~! I think about lots of weird stuff with guys. Like I wonder if when they jack off if they think ah me and if so what they think. I was talkin to Greg oneday and I asked him that and I got.... sweatdrop Well, it really made me think after he told me gonk
domokun Bye~
EDIT
I know I should be sleep...I just found the lyrics to a song of a CD I have and...well...it reminded me of me....
Korn - Issues - Daddy
Mother, please forgive me. I just had to get out all my pain and suffering.
Now that I am done, remember I will always love you; I'm your son.
Little child, looking so pretty,
come out and play, I'll be your Daddy.
Innocent child, looking so sweet,
I rape in my eyes, and on your flesh I'll eat.
You raped. I feel dirty.
It hurt. As a child.
Tied down. "That's a good boy."
And ********. Your own child.
I scream. No one hears me.
It hurt. Not a lot.
My God. Saw you watch.
Mommy, why? Your own child.
Little child, looking so pretty,
come out and play, I'll be your Daddy.
You raped. I feel dirty.
It hurt. As a child.
Tied down. "That's a good boy."
And ********. Your own child.
I scream. No one hears me.
It hurt. Not a lot.
My God. Saw you watch.
Mommy, why?
It's alright
"I didn't touch you there."
Mommy said she didn't care.
"I didn't touch you there."
That's why Mommy stopped and stared.
Little child, looking so sweet,
I rape in my eyes, and on your flesh i'll eat.
You raped. I feel dirty.
It hurt. As a child.
Tied down. "That's a good boy."
And ********. Your own child.
I scream. No-one hears me.
It hurt. Not a lot.
My God. Saw you watch.
Mommy, why?
********
********!!
******** b***h
I ******** hate you
******** you
********
I ******** hate you
******** you
b***h
You ******** ruin my life
You ********...
******** b***h
I hate you
I ******** hate you
******** you...
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