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((In the arms of my beloved is where I feel most safe. It's also my favorite spot to take small naps when I'm tired. I could just stay there for so long and not want to leave, even if I have to. With Rikki, I am in complete and utter bliss.
I love to turn things into games. Why? Because it's so much more fun that way. I lick his face, he does something similar. There are points, but nobody keeps score. I'd know if I ever won... and I never really do. I try to find points where he lets his guard down, but whenever I check, he knows what I'm thinking, and he juss doesn't let me. I'll get a few licks or something here and there, but I'm always the first to let my guard down. I try to test myself and see how good I can do each time we play these lil games. There is unfortunately for me, a bit of a disadvantage... no. Lots of them. I'm ticklish for one thing, but the biggest one that always makes it harder for me to do anything is... I like to be petted! gonk I have several weak spots he knows about, and when I let my guard down enough for him to get to them, I usually 'lose'. I try to resist, and it's so very hard. He knows it gets to me no matter how hard I try to keep a straight 'ha, it doesn't effect me' face. It relaxes me. Too much. If I'm more on the edge of I 'don't wanna lose', then I'll resist hard, but then I almost always get to the point where I just 'oh well' and pretty much fall asleep. Such lame weaknesses! Whyyyyy? I will one day find a weak spot on him, and I will laugh! heart xd I know when he pets me and I'm dead asleep, the idea of having such a dramatic advantage over me is so fun, cause he can never lose. I know I like to be petted. A lot. Depending on my mood, I might even let my guard down on purpose. He asked me why I always tried to resist thought I liked it so much. Mostly because games are fun, and I can't let it be that easy for him to win. It's also the feeling of having no control. If that thought crosses into my mind, I usually try a bit harder to resist... which is usually futile. gonk But as I always say: 'worth a try'. Whenever I act like I'm against being petted, I know I'm not fooling him, but when I give up, I lose... but winning in't everything.))