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Yup, you heard me right. whee I think I'm getting better at not being all negative about the outcome of things. 3nodding I'm very proud of me. whee
I just wokeup crying I wanna sleep more...I don't know why, though. I mean stressed I got all the sleep I need in, I'm just so damn lazy all I wanna do is sleep nowadays.
We have new kitties whee Actually, there ally cats my mom fed once and now they won't go away xd She kept them in the house for a bit, then my bro's and sis's wouldn't stop holdin them so she put them outside 3nodding One was sitting on the window seal and the other was sitting infront of our door when she came home from work so she decided to keep them. 3nodding
Whenever I get around to it &.&;; I'ma post some piccys of them here. I dunno what my sibs have dubbed the cats, sweatdrop everyday there's a new name for them. Personally, sweatdrop both of those cats scare the hell outta me so I avoid all contact...ones a boy and the others a girl. The boy is young, less than a year, and the girl is older and we think she's his mother 'cause she's not mean to him like she should be. The mother cat ish pregnant, whee I begged mom and if it has a black kitten its mines~! 4laugh
My tummy hurts crying I'm crampin like friggin hell 'cause its "that time of teh month"...
So ya know, wink whenever you see "teh" in my typing, its not a typo its actually "teh". heart
I feel all lovey today~! whee I wanna jump around and scream~! I mean... sweatdrop after I take a shower wink
Oh~! Oh~! Mom took me cloths shoppin yesterday~! whee I got two outfits, came up to only $56 dollars and as I whipped out my money to pay for it she took out her wallet and so I just froze and looked at her. I made no sudden movements xd and watched as she bought my stuff for meh. heart I was so friggin shocked. She told me I had to save my money to buy cloths and then she paid for me. whee She told me to keep my money, 'cause it was "her job to buy me stuff like this" (and I directly quote xd ), so I said ok, put my money in my pocket and danced my happy a** out the store xd ...this scary white boy was watchin meh though crying I mean, I guess he was really cute and like around my age and all but he was watchin me all...weird like... sweatdrop
Since mom bought me the cloths I can buy and send Chris something~! whee Ish makes me uber happy~! I just dunno what to buy gonk I mean I dunno what he would like...ish has to be like...diffrent but still likeable.... sweatdrop
Anyway~! whee JBlade~! TY for your PM, whee it makes me feel happy you got my back gurl (mmm, mmm, ghetto slang xd ). It makes me feel so much betterness to have someone to talk to and to have you talk to me. whee Aint enough thanks in the world whee
.....speakin of ghetto....I talked wiff Josh and he said I don't talk like a "black person" does. gonk crying Some ah you might call him sayin that "racist", but he's mixed like me so its all gewd. cool
....geck, I need to rant for a second...I walked downstairs and asked my mom if she could take to me McDonalds so I could get somethin off the breakfast menu and I'd buy her some breakfast too. Before I even asked she all huffed and sighed and told her bf who she was on teh phone with "hold on" all ******** irrtated like. So me bein all happy I asked her and promised to buy her whatever she wanted off the menu. She was like "no" and rolled her damn eyes at me. How the ******** can she be so nice to me yesterday and then today be such a b***h as soon as I wake up?! So she got back on the phone and was like "Anywayz" to her damn boyftirnd, turned her attention off of me like that and went back to talking. stressed Pisses me the ******** off scream stressed Every man she meets is always more important than us kids and this is just one minor example of that!
... stare this is the exact reason I am running away. Yea, you heard me right. I'm gatherin up funds now 3nodding its so stupid of me to do, in a sense, but I need to feel appreciated by that woman before I loose my ******** mind over this. I already know where I am going and who I am going to. Its stupid...so stupid to me...yet I am doin it. 3nodding I wanna show that woman how much of a "rebel teen" I can be. evil Where am I goin?
....ta Josh. sweatdrop His dad already said it was ok and stuff and I really wanna be around the kid. I mean...there's not anywhere else for me to go. sad Nobody else wants me...
Thats a lie, sweatdrop scary net people say I can stay with them~but I don't trust 'em. 3nodding I know and trust Josh but I know meh mom-person would find me if I was with him so i duno what I will do...I just....I gotta get away from here. I don't care what I have to do to make it happen, just...gotta get away.
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I'm so hungry...to lazy to cook and to afraid to cook in our kitchen for reasons I will not mention here. ::sigh:: Its like everything is aganist me...
Good things, ish that no one I care about is mad at me anymore. whee I got meh PM's back and all is well. 3nodding
God damn these cramps are killin me.... crying
Most of all, though, whee Chris isn't mad at me~! He said had lots of stress on 'em that day ( ::sigh:: I still can't get him to talk to me about anything goin on in his life IRL.... sad ) and forgot how "important I am" to him. Like a direct quote there except I think he said "how important you are to me." redface I don't understand still how I am important at all, but I guess I don't have to 'cause he's not mad at me so its all right. I still don' t know what to do about him because he still confuses the ******** out of me, but I guess thats just how its suppose to be, huh?
I need to shower and find something to eat, see ya heart wink
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So, you're thinkin' about runnin' away...? :: nods :: I can't tell ya what to do but I hope everything turns out okay.
Kitties! Me wanna see! ^^;
:: huggles :: I can't stay on long so I know I didn't catch everything here, sorry.