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I'm in school...and for one copied my happy pink text.
...*once
Was a typo...I may of copied the text but don't think for a sec I'ma go back and "fix" a typo...
I have gotten so...disgusting lately. Not like...icky kinda disgusting. But I am disgusted with myself, to say the least, because my overall value on life has taken a nose dive for the worst...
No suicide or cuttin though, I'm clean now.
Why? I wanted to help someone yesterday and...well...I couldn't. They're really all hurt and I think all I did was make it worse...makes me feel so bad inside....also my lazyness. I hate school...I want to drop out so bad...I'm so sick of the people here. homelife I hate...which is why I want to run away...:;sigh::
Eh...haven't made an entry in a few days. I had no school yesterday, twas a snowday. Slept all day...Josh wasn't online so I just got bored and went to sleep. RO is boring now, 'cause I have no friends to really hang with now. After I disbanded the guild I learned how many of them really were my "friend"...
Hmm...Josh...he's been like the perfect boyfriend to me...I mean...it just amazes me how he is...Like honestly forreal, not like bad amaze though. I love him so friggin much...he makes me happy when I'm sad and argues with me when I'm mad (which I lurve heart ), and forgives me everytime I fck up and has been *very* patient with me this past week, since its "that time of the month" and I'm already bitchy sweatdrop ...I so gotta repay him...he's so good to me. redface
His friend Sann doesn't like me, though. ::sigh:: I dunno why...I wish I did. They're like best friends, and if Sann doesn't like em then Josh won't either eventually....::sigh::...
Talked to Zaros too. Well...messaged, actually. Was coolish..he's not really talkative to me anymore, though.
Sephy...doesn't talk to me anymore. I don't know why...but it really fcks with my head that he won't talk to me...makes me all depressed...I mean I am over him not liking me, he just won't talk to me...he said, after his little rejection thing, that now we wouldnt' talk anymore 'cause it would be akward. He is making all of this "akward"...:;sigh:: it can't be akward if we're not even talking though, now can it?
Slasher thinks I'm mad at him or somethin...nto mad, just not talkative I guess. I forgot his YIM name, but its nto like that if your readin here Slasher. I stay as "appear offline" so just message me and maybe I'll be on and get back to you...
Chris....I am happy with. Very happinessish....
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whee I just talked to Josh, so now I am all happyish~!
Personally....since Icey is the only one who can ACTUALLY take the time out of her busy day to comment here.....WHO THE HELL ARE YOU OTHER PEOPLE READING MY JOURNAL?!
...its bugging me....23 views and only one comment? O_o thats nto good...you people get your lazy arses into gear and comment! crying
Please? sad
Oy...so much more I wanna say...but not enough time...and this kid keeps lookin at my computer screen and its bugging me...
._. So I'll just wait till I get home and "finish" entry...if I remember...
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