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yeah so last night wasn't so great
i was up until like 3:30am because my mind wouldn't slow down. and the later it got, the more panic crept in. i was feeling a little pain in a rib, which was nothing because i probably was laying funny at one point from all the tossing and turning, then somewhere in the back of my mind i thought it was something bad. like... i dunno. whatever i thought, i thought i was going to die. lolz yeah cute ninja can be mentally unstable sometimes, especially when it's 3:30am and i had been doing cold fusion homework ALL DAY. anyways, it was a weird feeling. like, not so much panic as it was... "knowing" that it was over. just a weird, eerie feeling that i couldn't shake. actually, it was the feeling i had that scared me, not so much the small pain in my rib. so at 3:30am, my puppy wakes up and starts walking around. CLICK CLICK CLICK. the sound of her little claws clicking on my hardwood floor can be LOUD in a silent room in the dark when you're trying to sleep. then she whines at me. i roll over trying to ignore her. then she's like ROOWROOWROWROWR and i'm like OK I'LL LET YOU OUT well actually i whispered it because my family was sleeping. so i let her out to potty, wait around FREEZING by the door for her to come in, then she finally comes in, i get back in bed, but does she let me sleep? no. she's gotta jump on the bed and crowd my legroom so she can LICK HERSELF. LOUDLY.
i don't remember much after that. i guess all the excitement made me forget my dumb little anxiety attack and i guess i passed out. slept in til like... 10:30. i woulda slept longer, but puppy INSISTED i get up. she came in the room and started ROOWROWROORWROWRing at me because she wanted to play. or she was taking mom's duty of bugging me to wake up since she left for work and i had the house to myself to sleep as long as i pleased, or so i thought.

IN OTHER NEWS

called up my friend krissy who i hadn't talked to in a few years. we were having some problems and grew apart for a while i guess, but we patched things up. why the sudden urge to call her? i missed her. =( and i felt the need to appologize for something from a while back that i didn't even REALIZE was very wrong. so like, we're good now. gonna hang out soon, as soon as our schedules match up. o_o

there was something else i was gonna add to this entry but i really don't remember what it was.

OH YEAH.

i'm thinking about dropping my storyboarding class. i hate it. or maybe it hates me. i dunno. the program hates me, that's for sure. adobe premeire. it's evil, never use it. (maybe because i pirated it paid a lot of money for it) anyways, i'm more than failing, if that's possible. i'm so behind because i missed some classes because of skipping because that stupid class stresses me out reasons beyond my control. so yeah. i think it's not too late to drop it and not suffer the blow to my GPA, i just won't get the money back. OH WELLZ.

i have to work tomorrow. oh joy. 4 hour long shift, that's a nice change to all my 8 1/2 hour shifts last week. 2pm-6pm, not bad. i won't have to have any meals there. cool

puppy got a haircut. she's sooooo soft and cuddly and adorable and she smells sooo nice. heart pixcominsoon surprised