Welcome to Gaia! :: View User's Journal | Gaia Journals

That's it!!!!!

I am ******** sick and tired of being me!!!

Today, my grandmother and I went to mall to go clothes shopping, for me. And, I was happy to go, cause I needed new clothes!
Really... I only had about three shirts and two pairs of pants. O>O Where do they all go!?

Anyway, when we got there, I was sooooo excited on picking out clothes. I told my grandmother was "works" and what "doesn't work".
So, I spent about an hour picking out clothes while my grandmother showed me what she liked, some of them were kind of cute.
So, when I finally finished picking all the things I wanted, I went back into the dressing room,
I laid down all my stuff and started trying on a pair of faded kakys with a light tan shirt (it had a phoenix desgin on it)
and a soft and pretty button-down shirt with strippes going down it. I liked it, a lot!!
But, my body didn't, because it looked horrible on me!!

So, I tried on the next set.... A pair of faded jeans with a navy blue Carona shirt. Plain and simple.
When I looked in the mirror, I looked so awful! I just wanted to scream!!! So, I went for the next set... It was the same thing!
The outfit wasn't ugly... I was! It was the same thing over and over and over again!
Like, someone kept rewinding me, to make me feel like s**t! -_-;

So, in the end, I bought a couple pairs of outfits.
The cost came to about 300 bucks.
Lol, I spent 300 bucks on depression!

Blah blah... So, I'm ******** tired of feeling like this. So, I'm gonna lose weight! Even if I have to ******** starve myself!
Yeah right... My mind won't ******** let me, for example, when I got home from the mall... I ate a sandwhich.
I couldn't go an hour without eating food! Errrr.... Maybe, I should put a lock on the fridge!
Haha, yeah right... I'll prolly pick the lock. stare

Well, that's about it...

Thanks for reading, again!

Until next time...

~ heart ~